I'm the author of my life.

无机不欢

2012-02-07T20:46:00.001+08:00

真的，没有相机在身，人生无意义。

当然这纯属个人观点，所以你可以否定这句话的。

我之所以会这么说，一，摄影是我一大兴趣。二，图片说故事，是我较有兴致的事情。三，没有图片的故事，就是会少了吸引力及说服力。图片是一种证明，代表你说的东西是可信的，是存在且真实的，甚至能让人对某一人事物有所了解。

好比说，今天跟随妈妈出外探亲。路途中，看见一辆摩托车，其中一个小男孩，头上带着苹果绿的头盔，甚是有趣。那看似平凡的头盔，却在马路上发挥了其特色。马路是灰色的，周围的建筑也没什么特别的颜色，于是它便成为了亮点，以至于我才能如此快速地发觉到。

当下立刻心想：没相机真的很不爽！无法拍下这有趣的画面，在此分享。

因此，此文的结论是：明天我就开始打工生涯了。赚来的薪水，铁定把它花在相机上！

我要拥有你，红小弟！！！

Titleless.

2012-02-05T13:18:00.000+08:00

Okay, I'll start working as a waitress in Sushi King, Leisure Mall. Soon. The first thing to do is to undergo an interview on coming tomorrow.
Please feel free to visit me. No discount guaranteed, though.

Yay! Once I earn the salary, there will be a DSLR bought in my room. Whoa, thinking of it making me smile wide. And I'd also list down several decisions. Ways of spending money wisely.

I've no idea what to say over here, was just feeling to log in. And I've made changes of the template again.

~~Good luck for tomorrow!~~

Good start for tomorrow!

找工记

2012-02-03T16:29:00.000+08:00

昨天是星期四，是我与朋友们出门找工作做的日子。我们一行四人，怀着期待的心情，就这样浩浩荡荡的出发。

其实我不打算把寻工这来龙去脉在这里分享，我只有一个重点。

话说昨天我是搭巴士出发去时代广场的。这可是一趟让我见识不少人间温暖的旅程。大约短短的二十分钟，却能让我亲眼见证城市人逐渐减少的关怀。

图片说明：这两位女士，没有任何交际。对，他俩是互不认识的。老妇人出现之前（我相信你一看就知道谁是那位老妇人），黑衣女士是独自一人坐着的。而巴士行驶到下一站后，站在她身后的我就听到这感人的对白。

'Auntie Auntie, you duduk sini la. Ada tempat ma.'
'Oh, bolehkah?'
'Aiyo, boleh boleh, cepat mari duduk.'

我不晓得我是否没有听到那位老妇人的道谢，应该有吧。

于是，我会心一笑了。

还有一位阿公，也很有绅士风度。他见到空位，宁愿自己站着辛苦一些，也舍得把位子留给另一位女士，并示意她坐下。后来谁也没坐，女士心里应该觉得开心吧，她对阿公笑了一笑。

人之初，性本善。这句话永远是对的。坏人之所以会变坏，或基于家境恶劣，或基于环境影响，或基于个人品德。所谓“变坏”，也就是他之前是个好或有善心的人。虽然今天的社会道德正逐步堕落，但我还是相信善良的人是存在的。而我也应该秉持这种思维，让善良这颗种子在心底发芽成长。

这个世界，只要每个人都明白这个道理，我深信其实世界末日也不会这么快到。

另外想说的是，时代广场的龙年装横，嗯，不错。

致：浩嘉

2012-01-31T21:01:00.005+08:00

我要大声地告诉自己：我已经快要二十岁了！

不要再被爸妈责骂了。未来的路，只掌握在自己的手中。任何决定都是由自己去选择的。

我必须懂得掌控自己的人生。

加油！

This dragon year,

2012-01-30T13:30:00.007+08:00

well, sadly wasn't that excited. First, I've no hometown for crying out loud. Second, since I'm staying in KL, it's certainly another year to go through the not-so-fun cny atmosphere. Some more, I got quite a few of relatives' death last year, so we have to stick to the tradition which means no much hanging out.

Overall, this year ain't really dull lah.

But, angpows sok sui a bit. And I apologize for being rude to say it.

Part of the decorations in my house. See the pink flower? Wel it's fake, but, still so pretty! The color's so attractive and you'll surely notice this eye-catching stuff when you enter my house.

I prefer fake flowers. Real flowers leave a dead smell when its life comes to an end. Fake means forever fake; in another way, fake flowers are easier to take care of.

I see many people love flowers.
But I see many people love these red things more.

I believe the theory is, you pay to buy flowers, but not angpow. All you have to do is say, 'Gong Xi Fa Cai!' and that's it, one more in your pocket.

龙年到！

2012-01-26T15:42:00.002+08:00

2012 龙年大快乐！ :)

Our Singapore trip.

2011-12-30T13:05:00.064+08:00

First to say, this is a prolonged post. Our Singapore trip was on 16 till 18 December, after 3 days STPM. At last, I get to make use of my passport, since I applied one from 2 years back. I was feeling kinda excited, because I'm telling you that it was my very first time to go out from the country! For 19 years of my existence, mom used to emphasize how busy or bustling or whatever she is at work, which couldn't make us an occasion. For your information, she's the one, in the house, who's been to many countries, being offered incentive trips so frequent by her company. It definitely defines each journey is FREE OF CHARGE. Man. How I envy her so much. Either were my brother and dad.

Hey, I seem running out of topic.

Kay back here. We were so fortunate to have a friend of mom's over there, because that enables us to avoid the hotel payment where the currency between our Malaysia and Singapore is S$2.44: RM1, while the day we went. Mom said this ain't expensive actually, just; imagine if you switch the money into.

Grey sky. It's morning yet.

The view of our place. If you'd observe, you get to see the sea at the end of the picture.

Green concrete.

Guess how tall is our building? It's 25th; the tallest.

We set out at 6 morning on the first day, which means we woke up at about 5. I wasn't all awake at the moment. When I off my lovely bed, stretched my four limbs, brushed my teeth, washed my face, I went to look for my preppy clothes and were thinking damn it's time to school. And then I immediately whispered, WHAT THE HELL? Hadn't I just finished my exam? I looked over the calendar, and I suddenly discovered my packed luggage and find it I'm an idiot. How dare I forget what are we gonna do today? I hear the voice 'HOORAY!' in my heart after that. So I quickly dressed up, and went down to do last preparation. Mom told we're gonna breakfast at outside, so I gave up looking for any food. Lol, do you know that my dad woke up deliberately on the morning just to say goodbye and bless us a happy travel? I mean, that's sweet. I felt sorry that he can't follow.

We ought to meet up another pack of relatives at 6.30, so our breakfasts were a bit rush. We'd eaten Mee soup nearby Connaught. After that, we started the engine to reach KFC at somewhere. A cousin of mom's slipped into our car as we met. He's my uncle, but I never meet him before. It was kinda embarrassed for me to meet a sort of stranger and haha, he at last drove mom's car after we stopped by a Rest area for a journey break, mom started to feel sleepy. I was sleepy too, for I didn't have enough rest the last night. So mom and I slept in the car on the next journey, whereas brother and uncle chit-chat.

Until we headed to the Custom House, I couldn't sleep anymore. We gotta show up our faces to the officer to verify each passport. Of course I shouldn't face him with my eyes shut. I wow'ed as it's the first time to do this. The procedure continued at the Singapore Custom House too. Then, mom went to register auto-payment for her car. Once all the a-must processes accomplished, Yay! It's time to go to Singapore! On the way to mom's friend's place, I'm highly inspired of the beauty of the surrounding. So perfectly green. Even the footbridge. Awesome. But I'd forgotten to take photos. The point is it was kept in the luggage back at the car boot.

SAD TO SAY, our first day was SO VERY YES YES YES dull. All day long. The adults planned a visit to—I forgot its name—a Science Studio. We were eating lunch in Mcd, and they told us that. The responses are, 'Hellooooo, I'm 19. Two 19 here. The rest is 15, 13, and one going 13'. We didn't wanna get in. That would be a bore; the place is for those aged 16 below. So my mom and her sister asked, 'Then are you all gonna follow us shopping? You know how woman shops.' 'Yes, we mean, not being stubborn in the studio?' So, apparently, we did what we answered.

And I've to tell you, WE DIDN'T SHOP AT ALL! The weather suddenly turned hellish, it freaking rained. A heavy one. None of us expected this. The result is, we paced back and forth in a mall over and over again. Again and again, and yet again. Both adults gave up their shopping will, actually they were the most pitiful two, to seek hard for a restaurant or rest place so that we teens can sit down and relax our muscles. But we didn't appreciate their kindness; instead we grumbled and gave faces. Some more, the heavy rain affected our moods. I was mad too; luckily I have no guts to give face so mom wasn't mad at me. My aunt sighed for our unconcern. Anyway, she was fine after a few minutes. She's an optimist. I don't care the walks anymore; somehow I ordered a Japanese set once we finally got seated.

At night, we decided to visit Kinokuniya Singapore Bookstore in the mall. One word, BIG!

It's a place you get to see Japan books too, look at its shop name and you'll know. Oh, I met 2 Japanese.

We settled our dinner in here too, there's an eat area in the library. And then, we headed out the mall, and realized the pretty Christmas decoration outside the mall.

This is blur. I don't have DSLR. Not nice, I know.

One of the views of Ngee Ann City, we were in there.

By the way, Ngee Ann City in Mandarin is 义安城, a shopping and commercial centre located on Orchard Road, Singapore. Inside the tower, you've no idea that how full are the people! I didn't expect I'll be in such crowd. Dammit. That was why I got irritated eventually.

Oh, I experienced the MRT and bus over there. Gotta say, I praise its efficiency. Despite the structure of the train is about same as Malaysia's, it's far more comfy. So are the buses, and even cabs. The drivers won't ask you back, 'What? Where’s the place?' as how Malaysia's did, because these uncles have GPS on their own. So effective. But there was one quite cool. You have to call to, you know, order a cab to fetch you home. I’d been through this on the second day. We didn't know at first, and were feeling odd of why aren't any of them giving response as we wave. And then, a female guard came, 'Madam, I'm sorry to tell that you must call a cab to leave.' So we were a bit like, 'Holy crap!' Forgive us; we were already exhausted of whole day event. However, we still managed to call one and go home.

The next day, thank god finally, we're getting to play. Our venue is Universal Studio, a must go place in Singapore. You just view the pictures, 'cause I'm lazy to write about it.

The giant ball. The remark.

Brother.

The daughter and mom.

Top of the entrance door. Here we go!

I felt this as if Petaling street, so I took it. Lol.

Hey I love her oufit. I don't get a chance to face-to-face her, but I think she's pretty. Her camera is way cool!

This seemed like a museum. I didn't went in.

This is at another place. It's SO PRETTY at night!

Um, my brother took this. They have shows at times.

'Why the face?' said Kelly, my cousin.

Well, a few of us. There were 10. 4 gone.

I don't mean the family, but the gigantic robot.

Transformer.

In queue for a 4D Transformer.

The roller-coaster part.

So...complicated.

Gorgeous. I like this. Looked cool.

One of the entrance. The another is named 'cyclone'. The theme of the game. I regretted not taking that. And they said the cyclone one is more fun!

I failed to shot the speed. Aww. I had minutes but I still... Grr.

The Mummy part.

It's next to the roller- coaster.

At first, they stood like a robot and I really assumed they are. Then when visitors walked by for photos, I was startled that they, MOVED. Lmao.

Wow.

I forgot what this place is.

The castle part. To be honest, I felt proud of my skill when I captured this (please don't laugh). Doesn't it seem spectacular?

Remember Shrek and Princess Fiona? This is their castle! Lol they're the theme, the movie Shrek. You get to experience a 4D short movie here. It was fun!

Another view of the castle. Inside here is a Shrek souvenir shop. SO CROWDED.

What a crown water-pool whatever its name is. This was when we were in the waiting line outside the castle.

I didn't play much. I never like Theme Park or Funfair or something like this. So when they continued their games, I went alone to snap pictures.

He's cute haha.

The not-so-crowded street (good).

The street lamp is quite Christmas beautiful.

Caption'less.

The yellow cab. In fact it ain't working.

A random picture.

Coir performance.

A restaurant; our rest place.

On the third and last day, we woke up rather early again. Mom's friend and her daughter insisted to be our tour guide, since we haven't visit Marina Bay yet. Oh god, that was the moment we realized what a place we left! It's the trademark of the country, if we really didn't make it there, there will be no meaning for the trip. Even Aunty Jessy (mom's friend) said so. I like her. She's so kind and friendly, smiling always. And she treated us really good during the days we stayed overnight at her house.

Marina Bay. I deadly wished to have DSLR at the mean time. :(

That's it for the photos. Overall, this trip is fun. I like the green scenery most. I think I must visit again next time, this time with friends. By the way, I know I'd been saying this, still, THANK YOU Aunty Jessy. You're so warm and sweet. Oh your daughter too. Man she's a musician. She plays guitar and piano, and she can sing! And she's so pretty.

p/s: I wonder where did I get the will and patience to do this post! It's the longest from my blog ever. Human is really unpredictable.

I want a hair cut.

2011-12-29T21:32:00.012+08:00

Apparently, my hair grows inches long as day goes by. The last time I went to barber was July, for that my friend agreed I look Hebe alike, laugh out loud. Of course they didn't mean my complexion (they would never), but hair style. The bob once Hebe had in I dunno what the year was.

Like this. And, I'm Team Hebe.

And now, my hair is about shoulder. I hate when it starts to warp at its end. Hair length like this is the ugliest, well, to me. I know I'd been telling a million times at school that I super dislike long hair, what I detest most is hair tying is a must at school. This is so-called HEADACHE! For 9 hours about spent at school, I'm sickened by doing this, more, it was 5 days a week. Sometimes 6. Those days with short hair were the best days I ever had, in my existence. Haha.

My long black hair was once so being praised. Yes, no lies. That surprised me, because I never realize I have outer beauty to show off. Hence it gave me chances to 'Oh, sorry to make you begrudge me' my mates. Of course that's a pretty bad joke la. They just admire its nature thickness and straightness. I was sort of proud.

And my bang! Well I don't think it's called bang anymore, since it now grows below my lips. When I was younger, I never like keeping the front hair long; I'll cut it even it grows only a little. So it was mostly on top of the face--I think because I was lazy to pin them up at school where school have this enforcement. As Chinese says: 人是善变的。 Yeah, I today have no more bang instead.

I can be ghost at night. Perfect front hair, lol.

Too, I know I told a hundred times I wanna go for a hair cut after STPM. Now STPM is far over, yet I'm still keeping it for why the hell I am still? I even promised a friend of mine to go with her, but I eat their words for certain reason. Translation: renege. Sorry Mun Wei, although you never mind it. Guess I simply have no mood for it at the mean time. Apart from this, I've no idea which hairdresser is the best to go to make a new me. Any ideas, people?

The most important question is, which hair style shall I cut?

This? I wanted this.

Do you know she's been chosen as best face among all artists recently? I forgot which article it is. So maybe I should imitate her. Ha.

Or hers? You know, not bad.

Stylish.

Okay, to attract people's attention, stay left. To be normal instead, stay right. I'm hell not staying left.

This is so much nicer. I like it.

Give me an around of applause for my courage if I have this. I meant it.

I demand a look that is real short, not leaving the side hair below ears. Side hair is somehow frustrating, especially when wind blows, or when enjoying a meal. The annoy makes me wanna say, ' Get me a scissor!'

Oh, I wouldn't dye my hair in my life time. For first, I do like the color. Black as an Asian. There are teens who admire westerner's hair color, likely blond and gold and else. In fact, it's vice versa. The foreigners do envy our black too. For second, I barely agree that hair dying looks nice. Sorry if I offend anyone here. You must understand that everybody owns different opinion, either am I.

A separate post. I find this website useful, http://www.grammarcheck.net/. It's an online grammar and spell checker (it's listed so obvious when you click in). It works to amend your grammar or spelling errors. This explained why I write a lot on blog. Ha. And this along, http://www.synonym.com/. It's a site for you to search definition, antonym and synonym of any English word. Try! By the way, I'm looking forward for a vocab one. Gonna seek it later.

I'm off topic. Goodbye and goodnight.

Casual here means, random.

2011-12-28T10:43:00.008+08:00

Good morning planet, today is the last day of Wednesday of 2011.

Yeah right, last day. Or I shall say, this is either the last week. Anyway it's nothing special, I pretty much wanna emphasize just a little. You all know, that Jan 2012 will be on this coming Sunday, which means there would be concerts and celebrations all around the world on Saturday night. As it's a purpose to hooray the very last day of the year. Nope, I ain't hanging out. I'd rather stay home watching tv other than being stuck outside like in a sardine tin. I hate crowd forever, of knowing that makes me uneasy.

YES. I HATE THIS KIND OF CROWD SO BADLY. And the night may possible be like this.

I slept at 2 last night. But I woke up early this morning, 9. Not 8 hours enough. The pair of eyes were kinda sleepy yet. But I got to wake up this early to make my family breakfast. Mom wants to eat mayo toasted French bread before she leave to work, well she told me last two nights. In the house, I'm the one who prepare breakfast usually. And this food is easy to make in an actual way. You don't need too much ingredients, simple can already make it tasty. Okay, the procedure goes like this:

First, buy a French loaf. Neh the long long and hard to bite one. This is everywhere in bread store.

This one, named as French loaf.

Second, you need eggs. About 3 or 4 for a family meal (well estimate yourself if there are more people). Boil it until solid, not even a bit liquid must you have. If you see the egg yolk is still liquidity, that means you fail. I failed a lot on my first time lol.

While you're boiling the eggs, cut the French loaf into pieces--I said cut it while you're waiting for the eggs because I think you'll at least have something to do and won't feel bored. Ha.

Third, don't forget the mayonnaise since this is the main material of the cuisine. Once the eggs are completed cooking, slowly compress it. DO NOT SQUASH TOO HARD. Make sure you can still see tiny pieces of it. While in the process of crushing, add along some mayonnaise, pepper and salt to integrate the taste. And beware of the amount of these two because mayonnaise is a bit salty on its own, remember to always taste before you feel the need to add more for your first time making.

Eventually, it will be like this.

Well, this is half of it. We ate another half this morning, so YES, it looks ugly. Sorry for the blurriness.

Okay, it'd be nicer if you have garlic butter to apply on the bread slice. More scented to eat on. Once you finished the steps above, you may then smear the egg mayo on the bread surface. And then, Tada! Just put them into oven to toast! I recommend you to buy along spearmint to spread some on it after toasting. You've no idea how nice will it be to smell at.

Good luck for a try!

All right my next topic is, I was buzzing a lot this morning. Ever since I renewed the blog, I have plenty ideas to compose. I even wanted to describe a biography of myself. And I notice I seldom put on picture in here, and people might dislike this because image is always more amusing than word. True. This is why I hardly read a book that has no photos at all (but I read Twilight saga, lol). So, from now on, maybe I'll upload certain photos along I write. Either to make it more descriptive, or to entertain people. I think both.

Next following week will be school opening for all students out there. Thank god I'm graduated. I still have chance to sleep later. I think I'm gonna play till end of Jan. Or half of Feb. I know I've to plan a Malacca trip for the UA3's. We still owe it. And I thought of delaying it till Feb so that we Chinese can have pocket-money for the travel by receiving angpows. YES! Angpows. Chinese New Year is approaching very soon! Don't bother to gain weight again, just eat! We should enjoy life when we should.

Correct, CNY is coming, I don't see things in red, though. I mean not nearby my house. Kinda disappointing. People in today's century is getting lesser to celebrate the traditional festival, where it's merely once in a year. Remember when I was a kiddo, the atmosphere were far different. We really will do clean-up, arrange beautiful decor, buy CNY eatables and so on. What I loved and expected most is of obtaining new clothes! Mom will shop when CNY is around the corner, until today. However, things to buy today are getting fewer too. I once was curious of a question, who knows one day our next generation will ask, "what is Chinese New Year?" and that will be like, holy crap.

I've no idea what to write more. Hopefully everyone will succeed their whatever dreams in the coming year. Even if 2012's gonna be the end of the world as forecasted, I wish people will die in peace. It's a matter or fact that it's already late to change the world when the forces of nature is stronger than even a brick house. Just, when you know you're dying, don't forget to appreciate you loved ones and please say 'I love you' before it's too late. Let's die without regrets.

All right, I shall leave now. Goodbye.

Hello people.

2011-12-27T22:02:00.009+08:00

Welcome to my new page.

Yes, in evening, I recalled back my dead blog. Firstly, to settle the boredom, I'd decided to surf around, and eventually was clicking the button of all friends' link to read them--well it upsets me a little because most of them haven't update much--until I stopped at Hui Hui's blog. For your information, I always enjoy reading her posts (she types very frequent) and that's because she's a humor, and I often got entertain by her story. Besides, some of the posts are informative too. And then from hers, I'd viewed some other eye-catching blogs that I never know how fascinating a blog will be with color and word. Frankly speaking, that inspired me. I always like striking colors. And these people are writers.

Well actually, I've thought to redesign my blog's template since many days ago. Those who follow me surely know which color does my earlier blog have. I mean, way too plain. I've used black, white, or both; that's it. If I'm not mistaken, I started to blog when I was 17, which means two years back (or three? I forgotten). I remember the first time was white, and then I switched to black due to I hate white suddenly for I didn't know why, and lastly both mix-match with a bit grey. This is what we called 'boring'. I don't deny these colors are sort of ugly, for me. I wonder why I never realized this tiny mistake. Nonetheless, it's never too late to fix the problem.

So now I did something. Two reasons. One is as what I mentioned above. Another one, I said I got inspired too. After reading several strangers' blogs, I finally found the enthusiasm to renovate my onmywayhome2310.blogspot.com for god's sake. Tell me, does the new scene attract you (did you whoops?), at least a little? I dunno if you prefer it, however I do. I do think it's worth the change. In another saying, this is a method to motivate myself to keep contact to it. To not living as lazy worm. It's like you went to a hair cut for a happier you because you crave a new look, such as. Indeed I've a great time of doing it and am rejoice. It's like: Pop! things are no longer the old kind.

I'm not here to promise that I'd write more from now onwards. I knew I'd been ignoring my blog and leaving it wander alone. Just, I'll try. Kindly allow me to explain a little. Before today, Form 6 was usually full scheduled. Loads of tasks and assignments were in queue to get done, before another new work join in. Speaking about tasks, it reminds me the R&D thing. Therefore, I had no chance to log in as often as I was. I'm rude sometimes, so I ain't gonna apologize over here.

OH, I deleted the Mandarin blog just now. Another of mine. Remembering the reason I make it, I chose to separate both writing language because I assume this works to make my English blog more tidy. I saw it a mess to type both languages in one place. In fact, it's really nothing when I review the need of separation by now. Even more, it sometimes affects my good mood to post, laugh out loud, because I got mad of clicking continuously onto both blog. Sooner it gets me feel a little hysteric of myself doing this stupidity. Therefore, I rejoin it back into one. So I'll just write whichever language I want according to my random mood. I can never stop writing, which it means give up on either English or Mandarin, because first, Chinese is my mother tongue, and second, English is well-known as international language and of its global usage. Hey did I just crap too much? Of course bloggers often write in these languages.

Blogging is also somewhat a means to enhance my writing skill. Yes, I know you agree. You probably open a blog for this reason too, don't you? Back in the days, when I was getting ready for SPM, I came in almost everyday. Because at that moment, I rarely score well in composition. My teacher was far too strict, and that turned into stress towards me. One day, I figured out that why not I blog? This is surely something I in tend to do (as long as I get to use the pc), and I can easily learn along my frequent grammatical errors by blogging. Eventually, have to say, it helped out a lot. At least now I have confidence to write more without hesitation. Um, thanks to the founder of Blogger? Haha.

Oh hey, if you need to talk to me, don't look for the chat box, but comment me instead. I know we used to talk through a thing called 'Cbox', but since I don't think I could upload one here, so please follow what I have said. And I thank you with a smile.

Woah，I’d spent two hours here unwittingly. No wonder my eyes start feeling heavy. I turned to look at the clock, it shows 12.01am. Wow, it's really late. Or shall I whisper good morning to you?

Okay, I'm off now. Sweet dream people. Beware of nightmare. *with smile*

See, even a dog winks.

2011-12-27T21:59:00.003+08:00

我从一本书读到这篇我很喜欢的故事，愿与大家共勉之。

有一个人在佛陀脸上吐口水，佛陀了擦了擦脸，然后问那个人: “你还有更多的话想说吗？” 他的门徒都非常震惊，而且生气。

大弟子阿南达告诉他：“ 这太过分了！因为你在这里，我们不能采取任何行动，否则我们一定会杀死那个人！那个人向你吐口水，而你却问： “你还要更多的话想说吗？” ”

佛陀说：“ 是的，因为那是说话的一种方式—吐口水，或许那个人非常生气，用话表达是不够的，因此他吐口水。当话语不足以承担内容，你会怎么办？你微笑、你哭、你流泪、你拥抱、你用手打、你做一些事。如果有太多的愤怒，你要怎么办？你就吐口水。”

这就是佛陀，不是用头脑的洞见，而是详察了那个人：“ 到底是怎么一回事？他为什么向我吐口水？” 佛陀本身并未涉入，他没有带着过去的经历和概念，认为吐口水是坏的，认为那是恶意羞辱，没有任何概念来干涉，他只是详察了这个对他吐口水的人的实际状态，他十分开心：“ 为什么？这个人一定是处于苦恼之中，一种语言的苦恼，他想要说一些事，但是没有适当的话可以说，因此，在十分困难的状态下，他吐了口水。”

佛陀说：“ 所以，我问你还要更多的话要说吗？” 那个人感到震惊，因为这不是他的期望，他是来羞辱佛陀的，但是佛陀并没有被羞辱，佛陀的慈悲如阵雨般洒落在那个人身上。

当天晚上，他无法入眠，他一再想到佛陀：“ 这个人到底是怎么样的一个人？这个人是秉持着什么态度？我吐口水，而他带着非常多的爱，只是说：你还有更多的话要说吗？”

隔天清晨他回去，摆在佛陀的脚下说：“ 先生，原谅我，宽怒我，我整个晚上都无法入眠。”

佛陀笑了，他说：“ 傻瓜, 为什么？我睡得非常好，你为何要为这件小事情烦恼，它没有伤害我，你看我的脸跟以前一样，你为什么要那么担心？”

那个人说：“ 我是来当你的门徒的，请你点化我，我要跟你在一起，我看到了某种无以伦比的，超出人的东西，但是先请你原谅我。”

佛陀说：“ 不要胡说，我怎么能够原谅你？我甚至没有对它生气，我要从何原谅你？”

经过了二十四个小时，他们坐在河的岸边，佛陀说：“ 看看在二十四小时里有多少水流过河，在你里面也有多少生命经过，他也不再是同样的河，我也不再是同样的人。事实上，你从来没有向我吐口水，那是另外一个人，已经过了二十四个小时，你跟那个吐口水的人已经不是同一个人，所以，现在谁能够原谅谁？让过去的过去吧！”

我告诉你，当我读完了这篇故事的片刻，内心即顿感澎湃。这种感觉可以说是前所未有的，甚至令我感到莫名。我知道我向来都是个脾气挺暴躁的人，在情绪管理这方面仍有待改善。所以，坦白说，这篇故事实在启发了我。它让我开始了解，或许有的人真有一处无法形容的痛苦，导致他们连语言也不足以发泄心中的悲伤或愤怒，因而作出一些令人气愤的行为。很多时候，我生气一个人，就是因为他们做了类似此事，而我却没细想他们行动的理由，是否因有心无力，或另有其因？以我的个性，我铁定会把那个惹恼我的人骂得很惨。但是经过这一次的‘取经’，我想我开始有所领悟了。

希望我的坏脾气能够从这里出发吧。当然，我是指有所改善啦。当别人用另一种方式来宣泄不满时，我或者应该温和地问他：“你还有什么话要说吗？” 也许，他会受感化而说不定。（笑）

2011-12-23T18:51:00.006+08:00

Good evening, people. The time is 5.24 at the moment.

I was downloading songs, before I felt bored of waiting at the process. This explained my existence here, although I’m kinda lazy to log in.

I wonder how the heck I lost the interest to blog, as days passed by. I once liked to write a lot. During school time, people around me are equal compared to my study schedule, as we were busily preparing for an exam mood. Well, students are students—we never would put the hardest effort not before the first exam day. This is eternity truth.

So, I should have more free time to update my current life, but instead I didn’t. How bizarre does it seem.

Let’s talk about my exam. The earliest day was, hmmm, still considered fine. I dunno if my fine is in same position as yours. But I doubt I’d lose 15 marks from the fourth part of the paper. Sigh, to have such suspicion.

The opening week of exam wasn’t really good, due to the fullness of the schedule. Everything was quite a rush. I had to do four papers in first week! That means twelve hours dude, can you imagine? Headache kept attacking me, when I need attention to revise for a last opportunity. I omg’ed and dang’ed a thousand times whenever I dare myself to look at the ceiling, to the clock, to see how bloody much minutes left. How depress.

And I stayed overnights at grandma’s quite often. But that wasn’t really a good idea, honestly. I can hardly endure the, how to say? Owl-night-life? I could tell you that most of the residents here enjoy watching whatever drama or movie at night. LATE night. Until 2am. Wow. Don’t they afraid of blackening eyes?

AND, my history paper 1 is confirmed to fail! Awwww. That made me so down, and hopeless. I admit I work less on this subject, and I merely focus before tomorrow. Indeed I was stupid to read only the predicted titles, so I’d got my punishment through the paper. The fact is, 16 questions, 4 to do, but, but, but, none of them I understand! Out of a sudden I was like don’t recognize the letters anymore. Despite all this pain, I forced myself to fulfill four questions. And then I quit an hour earlier. Pacing at the stairs, I felt like sobbing.

However, I shall thank god to undergo the first week suffer. The second week was easier and better to focus. Because it has merely two subjects which are Economics and Business and those were beyond my expectation to score. Luckily, these ain’t as hard as History. Or else, I won’t be able to tell you the story here—too shaming.

When the second week was also a past, do you know how thrilled was I? It was like no more wounds, getting eager and energized instead. Why? Because there were two papers remained! And I have days to study slowly. PA, especially; 7 days, a week. I was extremely happy toward it, jumping around, expressing the excitement.

So as the last day came, we can never hide the enthusiasm any longer. Each of us is just too chilled to be ended, to throw all the books! Laugh out loud. As the minutes passed by, then lastly, the clock shows 5pm, I gotta say: DAMMIT! It rained. The weather was unexpectedly irritating and annoying. Right at the moment we’d completed our test, to one’s surprise, the sky turned so grey and the water started to pour. How bad was it? In the end, we had to wait at canteen for the rain to stop. Of course we cherish the waiting moment by chatting and shouting loud for the very last time in school.

And then, everything was COMPLETE!

SHOUT FOR THE FREEDOM!!! LIBERTY!!!

It has been done since a couple weeks ago. It’s a remark of relief! Finally, I’m able to ignore the books, the alarm, the preppy clothes, the notes, the papers, the folders, the assignments, blah blah blah. AWESOME.

I once regretted of being in the school. By having experience regarding to its management and attitude, it makes me feel awful. The system they administrative, the way they act upon their manners, the work they did hard to perform somewhat better outlook—mostly they failed—and whatsoever they tried to convince us that school ain’t that futile…I figured out that I can’t believe how worse things can be. I’ve never been to such place. There’s a female teacher I some time ago fought with her in front of other teachers and friends, which it had me got more aware of the school.
However, there are teachers I loved. They are my PA teacher, my Economics teacher, my History teacher, and one Business male teacher who off the school last year. I kind of missing him; he was great. These people have tolerance, patience, and vigor that often remind me not to give up. Thanks for being with us! I know I always like you all.

Form 6 is said to be busier compare to my previous study time. In Cochrane, an R&D assignment is compulsory to us. This was sort of frustrating. Anyway I still manage to do the task at last. And lucky to say, its mark isn’t included into STPM, if it is, it truly will lower down my qualification. Besides this, I was committed to a number of jobs. I preferred EB most, of all that. It was fun. I had plenty chances to snap pictures of the school event. Plus, design event pages for school magazine. This is one of the best memories.

Goodbye school, I’ll never miss you, but friends. Not to say that a year and a half is adequate for the friendship. These people are unique, crazy, fun, and indescribable! What to do? This is life. Every starts include its ends. And we have Facebook and cell to keep contact. Form 6 was lovely, a little hatred, but rejoice more! Okey-dokey!

This is part of UA3's. I took it during Explore Race day. And I like it.

2011-11-04T12:31:00.004+08:00

Today, Friday, is a holiday. Specifically for those who absent school.

If you're around me, you should visit my class. My empty class. With emptied rows of tables and chairs. You probably will say: "Where the heck are the rest?", the answer is: "Oh, this is just routine of the year." Even our PA teacher sighed yesterday, "Great, the exercise books I bring are more than the amount of students’ presence in this class."

Yes, there were merely 5 schooled yesterday. I strongly believe we had already made a new record. Imagine how we spent the day! Having how many times I stared blankly as if I was facing the wall. I wouldn't exclaim how awesome this was.

School off at 2.05pm, oh my, what a time followed by heavy rain. Before the bell rang, do you know how nice the weather was? Later, all of a sudden, it turns hellish. I sigh another sigh for this memorable Upper 6 day.

I found out that Ruth is such a lovingly cute girl. A pack of us went to celebrate her birthday in Viva, which was nearby to grandma's--I gotta say, it's glad to have this mall around the area, that makes shopping easier. Too, it was so good to have Derek as my friend! Lmao. Because he does drive a cool car, and he's a student driver, and he drove us there in the rain. Romantic? I say it cool. As we arrived to the mall, we headed to Boston as the venue of the party. I definitely felt great to enjoy the meal with 'em since I seldom own this opportunity to in touch with 'em (smiling). So of course we eat play chat and pictured. The restaurant got high since our existence. O'shea. :D

Although there wasn’t much exciting time, still how good was the party. We made plenty photos, uh, to be posted in Facebook? Lol. Even Ruth didn’t receive a bunch of birthday presents, she was yet super happy by our willing of celebration. The moment she appreciated me, I was like, I never know she’s so grateful. A tiny thing would fulfil her contentment. A person like this is always easy to friend with, don’t you agree? I ever regretted a little for not buying her present.

Tada! This was the picture of the day. Dunno why, I just love it. There is friendship in there.

We finally clear the place at 5 something, slowly every each homed. I walked to grandma’s to wait for my brother. At night, Yay I finally changed the cell! This is certainly an award for my patience.

So that was my yesterday. Do you get my point as you’ve been reading till here?

Yes, I didn’t read much. I fell asleep when I was studying business at night for god’s sake.

Ciao now.

Hey I blog this in class you know ;)

2011-10-26T22:00:00.002+08:00

Yes I'm lazy worm. Hasn't my blog died a couple month? :0

To princess L,
Ha, thanks if you're visiting me. Here, I give you a wink. Do message me at the box there and you'll get another wink. Lol.

I'm currently living a Deepavali week. Holiday never ends in secondary life. It's scheduled. This is surely one thing I'll bloody miss after graduate! I guess it will be different once my Uni life starts. Oh my. Why can't times starts from age 13 anymore? Does someone play magic?

I was officially graduated, still I have to school. That doesn't make sense man. Or perhaps I've just never been to such school that runs annual graduation day as early as that. Dang, STPM is within 2X days, I can't say if I'm well prepared. Not physically nor mentally. Not in mind, too.

I turned active towards facebook these days. Thanks to Mr.holiday, you got me updated at times. (Haha?)

Frankly speaking, I don't really have blogging mood tonight. This random post was affected by, uh, sort of friend's motivation. Seeing them writing together, I recall my death blog. Hence here I came.

Hence now I leave. Goodnight people.
(I still have it updated! Ha)

2011-08-27T13:36:00.002+08:00

Never do things that make you regret.
Once you fall into it, do you think you're capable to recover everything as it was seconds ago?

Obviously no.

'Cause sorry no cure.

I'm living grief.

Because I do have dirty secrets that it's a shame to speak out.

2011-08-19T20:04:00.002+08:00

I love to sing, I would say.
Either it is to unleash, or to enjoy as a part of life.
Definitely irresistible. I can't say I have nice voice, anyway who cares. Not to say that I'm fearless to solo on stage, nah, that will ruin everything! I'm emphasizing how cowardice is me.

Lately, I consider relearning guitar. As it was once one thing I'm obsessed till resist eating. Remember back in the days, the moments I surfed hours of guitar learning webs, I secretly played my brother's beloved because he wasn't home from school yet, I dreamed of being pro one coming day, to achieve my singer dream. To me, skilled with music potential is fancy cool, and a bonus for better earnings? Somehow, as days go on, the passion has sooner gone. This is always a question of not knowing the answer. I dunno how did that happen, it occurred.

But I'm still passionate toward my er-hu. I still long for the team! Imma rejoin em after the big exam for sure. How bad I missed the concerts, though.

Too, I love to draw. I ain't pro to justice abstract art, however the feeling has came back into me suddenly these days. The point is, how long would it remains? Lmao, it's great I recognise myself this well.

And OH, I love trend. Not a change to miss out anything defines fashionable. I ain't sort of obsessive fellow to in, more, I strongly insist the best way to be chic is to have, confidence, inner beauty, and courage. Perfect mix match. Hey I used to love the word 'chic'. Isn't it pretty? Therefore this is pretty obvious. That Imma be a fashion designer in future, style of exclusive modish trend for Malaysian. One day you're gonna put me up. Yeah. Fashion is personality; personality is chic.

I'm inspired of an wonderful article. Reading newspaper is good.
It influenced me to type all these.

What I'm telling is, be candid and faithful to your whatever dreams. Dream is good thing; it keeps you up when you're down. No matter how hard things are, even if it lets you started to doubt yourself, you might experience certain mistakes that undermine things, so what? Soon dream will lead you to the right track. I like one phrase in song 'firework', it says: maybe you're the reason why all the doors are closed, so you could open one that leads you to the perfect road. Yeah so right. By then, you get to value better, and better yourself by truly knowing what you demand for a glorious living.

Since we're adolescent, we're power.

So don't stop to set free.

2011-06-16T21:58:00.003+08:00

I don't know anymore
I don't know what I've been fighting for
There's something inside me won't go quietly

And I could be anywhere
cos' we're all breathing the same air
It goes inside, makes me feel alive
and all I can say is, all I can say

I am here and I'll be following my own way
Forever and a day
I am here and I am here to stay
Oh oh we are here and we will be following our own way
No matter what you say
We are here and we are here to stay
We are here to stay

No matter where you roam
Anywhere you lay your heart's your home
Stand your ground if they push you down
Because all you can say is, all you can say

We are here and we will be following our own way
Forever and a day
We are here and we are here to stay
Oh oh we are real
We feel it when you deny us, when you get tired of us
We are here and we are here to stay
We are here to stay

2011-06-16T21:41:00.000+08:00

I wanna get rid of it.
So, goodbye.

2011-06-03T23:08:00.001+08:00

Every now and then, I’d get puzzled—I couldn’t discover what does the purpose of blogging really stand for, or, man, is there any valuable rationale when there are, in fact, not much who read me? I.e. am I your concern to keep you visiting my update as a lot as you eat and sleep? I suspect you don’t, you know.

“Oh I met this nuisance, that’s a bit of rough.” Hey is that instead?

But what matter is, who’s willing to care, if I just crap TOO much? Over time, it would have made you suffer an extra boredom of life; wouldn’t you agree that’s fairly so certain? While mankind in the universe desire and demand nicer stuff rather than got stomach-turning by my pointless-tete-a-tete at all times. I apology human, if I let you regretted to came.

Ah I’m persuading myself that this is just, so what. People care for me at the same time they adore me not. By the way, I admit I do tried to insert sucky words that seem idiotic to be figure out. I do hell enjoy making like it’s something secret and sort of code to define. Since I’m a reckless person who always trusted on ignorance is bliss thus jolly enjoying her blissful adolescent life.

But I ain’t gonna stop typing. In mandarin there’s one says: habit is some sort knot to alter. This bloody blog’s still gonna exist assuredly.

I’m pleasured in fancying. Either good ones or the bad’s. And that happens once I’m with myself. Frankly telling, many of ‘em made me insecure as if I’ll always be the not-good-enough. Nor the opposite side. I wanted to trash it off, to think healthier to stay healthier, but when life gets me down, I dunno where the helping hand to get up is. What shall I do to ease off the pains? Or is my effort qualified enough?

I knew I was having no chance.

Still that were days whilst I wasn’t relying on those I didn’t attempt to trust. Back in the days I was seeking what do me worth of. After had what I misdoing. I made no turn towards friendship. Indeed, because I thought so. Even if they had long time forgave my slip-up. I still lost the faith in among.

Now I do doubt myself facing the mental illness again. How am I frigging supposed to get rid of it?

My name is jerk.

Laugh me out loud. Then be my lifesaver.

Goodnight tonight.

2011-06-02T13:45:00.005+08:00

Rare. I'm feeling entirely good.
Perhaps mood transformed as weather goes by.

All right, apparently today ain't an outing day. And indeed my soul feels instantly bright to be with no-one else.

Since I've shifted I quite don't dare to decide too plenty hang-out plans. Yeah the because for the why is dang I hadn't even start the drive lesson yet. For your information, once I pass it, imma fly to wherever I want! I even dreamed of being a lady racer. Yeah go ahead laugh out loud.

Fell in love to ‘who says’ by Selena Gomez. I simply admire the lyric. Sort of motivation.

For myself,

I read the messages last night. Say, like it’s what I wished for. I’d never assume this is happening to me. Because I was expecting something else that is nicer and purer and, lovelier. The moment I finished scanning the sentences, the heart inside my body immediately gets real down. Down to nowhere to find. It shit poured. Yet bloody pain. So maybe I shouldn’t have on facebook that frequent? At least I can flee a bit?

Go on caling me stupid freak.

2011-06-01T20:46:00.006+08:00

I drew this using the phone at afternoon. Because I was having nth to do.

When life gives you something bitter, ask for something sweeter!
Nice quote.
And life should get a little colorful, isn't it?

Whassup to myself. I'm rather bored here.
Slightly knowing what's happening. Because I'm living a couple week of holiday. Imma attend the drive lesson next approaching week.

But before it I really have no idea how to spends the rest of the days.

I'm labelled.

2011-05-22T16:15:00.004+08:00

I’m sitting for my midyear question paper currently before the hols move toward. Of one thing I ever regretted much, is oh my I’d wasted time to read again. You read me as evidence.

And the again will always be another again.

De...cadent.

I out of the blue, felt. That I’m lacking the support to strive. Crap it ain’t helping. By the way you do agree that my English skill has been worsening? I meant I even needed more than minutes to think of what to write. Then now I recall things turned back from zero to zero after the MUET. OH, that’s it. All of a sudden I found out that’s the reason was I being unbelievably hard working back in the days.

I still owe dreams to achieve. And I’m hell not gonna live lika filthy parasite.

Man man man. C’mon MOVE ON YOUNG MAN!

One knocks to the head.

2011-05-01T13:57:00.005+08:00

I.MISS.YOU.

SO.MUCH.

I.HAVE.LOVE.SICK.

2011-04-27T21:26:00.006+08:00

To move on.

So tomorrow will be my expected day to welcome the Kelantan visitors! Although the pack gonna arrive quite late, still my intention is remained to push on. Ha, what a glorious feeling. We're givin' 'em 2 well prepared performances, and I'm party in choral speaking. To say it honestly, our choral's undeniably funky ever since teacher's guide. These guys are just potential!

The thing is, imma snap photographs! Just what I've moaned for.

I attempt to let know a little more, but since my eyes started to feel weighty, it's hence better to spare my energy for another log-in along with, of course, the approaching hours onwards.

Well it's actually 9.31 nights when I type till here. People around might have just started to surf net while I'm changed to snooze.

Good luck every young people! I hope you do understand me.

Ciao.

2011-04-24T17:19:00.005+08:00

Ola for the gone days.
Nope, weekends I shall say.

Ironic. I've decided to come in. I felt lost to post.
Mostly written in another blog.
My mind's pure empty now.

Perhaps I talked too much.
Before this I was ought to preview my updates here.

Crazy that I stared blankly at the keyboard,
but none of the letters am I wanting to touch on.
Gee, what the hell now.

Lmao, someone praised my mandarin blog.
You know who you are.
Thus my fatal smile here. *wink*

So, we shall meet soon.

Sth happened in a hysterical way.
I just, felt.

Title-less.

2011-04-10T10:46:00.007+08:00

Good morning world.

For first there are zero of 'em to chat together in facebook, ( I wonder where the hell is Stephanie Lynn) which it kinda upsets me, and second I don't have the TV mood, for third I'm stuck with school work, and fourth, I'm, YES, BORED.

Everything seems to be a bore now. As if I'm the only living human in the huge home. Wait, it's not as if. I need more. So I'm killing my time to blog whereas I promised not to log in as frequent though, and listen to music——thank god the living room has the amplifier sets to hit songs.

Music's my life saver right in the moment.

I'm scanning through my house. Looking at the decors. Hunting for eatables. Feeling kinda sad by doing that. C’mon, today is speechless man.

And I'm suddenly thinking;

say if I'm at US now. OH what a sweet dream. Being there will do the entertain part. I missed everyone there, frankly. I wished to visit Las Vegas badly!

It was a quarter to 8 when I woke up. The freshness of air is making me barely awake. So I actually lay there for minutes before I truly get up and change. In fact, I always love the morning weather. But not afternoon. These afternoons are so sickening everyone.

Every now and then I hesitate, are the recent disasters foreseeing us to aware of 2012?

That might be dude.

I still have one incomplete task. Gonna finish it later.

Holy crap, do I sound nonsensing?

Does anyone understand my sayings?

2011-04-09T16:07:00.002+08:00

Imma stop blogging and facebook'ing for a while.

Because mid term exam's sooner!

So, see ya.
To be continue.

2011-04-08T22:33:00.005+08:00

I'm undeniably free today.
Bro's off to overnight at his friend's, and luckily he decided not to bring along, therefore the notebook is free for me to spend my moment at the mean time. I'm not wanting much to complete the school assignments. Later please.

Hey feel free to visit my new mandarin blog.
Here!
I've started it since now onwards. With listed purposes.
and I thank you with a smile.

Recently, I’m having insufficient sleep. As a result, the panda eyes came to adorn my complexion. Nah that’s absolutely not a good thing at all! Thanks to mom whom used to urge me to bed in time since my early age, hence I’ve never had blackening eyes. I was like lord I can’t stand this at all! I felt like smashing the mirror into pieces. Nevertheless, I’m being more disrespecting on these school days. Sleeping during periods. School's basically defining a place to get cheer. ‘Kay, gotta find a way out.

On some occasions, while in a tête-à-tête, you're gonna note that I might stunned suddenly. Hell I’m still awake. Don’tcha bother for fear that what-a-bizarre-thing ‘cause I’m frequently a weirdo. Perhaps I’m out of answer, thus I’m thinking of answer to answer you, and it’s just I’m not rapid enough to buzz. So yeah, need not to freak out buddy.

These days are going rather than blue. Honestly, I’m feeling myself burdening my family, to sacrifice their work time through daily routine to pick me up after school. Especially, my bro. He’s more than a normal student; loads of stuffs to get done. To tell further, my pack is often busy humans. And I looked like a troubling parasite instead of contributing. Thinking of this make me feel weeping. I just don’t wanna live nth compare to a jerk.

That explained why every time I’m unhappy whenever they come to fetch me home.

The mid-term examination’s reaching nearer. Yet I’ve never starts things. Next coming Saturday’s more as its MUET day. Oh. Am I prepared? Do you think so?

Just don’t, laugh.

Oh yeah humans, are you realized of these hellish weathers? Sometimes I doubt if there’ll be no 2013. I give you all a question. Let’s look at today’s earth, how is it doing? Worse, said humans. However, are we cooperating fine enough to heal or curb the pollutions and so on? I guess there are pretty mush remains when human really dies. We ruined the planet, but have no treat to get rid of it. Really, it’s ironic. Where is the responsibility?

Perhaps caused by the weather, I’m feeling quite sick this afternoon. Guess it’s because I wasn’t drinking adequately. The body feels so heat. And, dang sore throat’s hitting me. Some more, is running nose. Eww, bad. Even right now is merely a little healed. I had cups of green tea.

Right now is already 11 late nights. Mom’s waiting for dad homecoming. My eyes feel heavy plus sleepy but physically I’m still in hyper mood. Oh, actually, I'm so hard working to facebook these recent days. I was once a week. Even myself's not having idea why. Hmm.

My mood to type’s still on. But I’m out of points.

I remember sth to tell which sounds quite important.

Good. Now I forget.

So maybe listening while texting ain’t good sometimes.

So, sweet dream.

2011-04-08T14:29:00.005+08:00

One for you?

We should take life easy, as how the beer tasted.

Nth much to post, just wanna crap here

.................................

But then I sense that nth to crap. Forgot what to say.

Okay ciao.

Shall meet sooner.

2011-04-04T19:24:00.003+08:00

It’s an awesome Monday humans!

‘Cause at the outset, I thought I’m unable to participate our class BBQ party, but afterward, you know what imma say!

And damn lucky Amir was there with his DSLR! Finally I can capture lotsa memories. Thanks buddy!!! Hmm, I’m still poor of camera skills.

So the whole is: I’m keeping myself busy as a photographer. Ever since I realize I don’t have plenty chances for that, therefore, certainly, I got urged to eat by the mates because of that!

“Go get foods!” they yelled.

Ha those words are sweetly adorable.

Although there were a few scorched, still I felt their sweats and willing. To say it, you don’t have the idea that roasting the cuisines is somewhat a toilsome job. Hence I fully appreciate you guys’ eatables! There were all filled with love and companionship and partnership and laughter and happy recall!

Yet, waiting for the upcoming one! Next time all the class’s are gonna attend themselves for a hundred percent plus one percent for sure.

What’s this Wednesday dude?

MUET speaking!

Better off and get well ready!

Ciao.

Do it now! Today will be yesterday tomorrow.

2011-04-02T17:00:00.002+08:00

Hey you,
ever get me?

2011-04-02T16:38:00.004+08:00

Good afternoon Sat.

Howdy buddy, let's have a tete-a-tete.

Hmm.
From the perspective of love, two halves make a whole.

Rather than saying boy-girl stuff, imma tell sth else.

Say, despite you put effort in order to work things out; still you receive no rewards unless you see a sign of motion from your partner. It’s not that I’m grumbling, just; won’t you feel the depression as well? I tend to strengthen her—where I strongly believe that friendship is the steadiest idea—but, with but’s, what a sad ending.

I’m all in girl, yes I’m not not so.

To XX:

You felt mistreated? For you information, I experienced yours. Gone are the days, I slip-up to ashamed myself toward face to face. I had one mistake that leads to worse impact. Being lonesome is no good thing. At all. Uh huh I never differ. We got blow. How do you, however, expect us to lend you a hand while you refuse to spread out? That’s the main point. So wake up! One day you’re gonna miss everything you loved and nowhere to be found. I wanted to enlighten you; to let you realize friendship is worth ever. Because: ‘I helped you, you help me back.’ Quote by somebody.

Speakin’ ‘bout somebody, I’m so very not gonna believe her any longer for my existence—since I figured out she’s a big tell-tale as a whole. Overall you’re a nobody of the nobodys.

To one more XX:

You made me change. I assumed you’re better than our class t. Well at the present, I was. After what we had been through, I still say, ugh. Stories and stories keep going, yet none of ‘em is related. So is that a so-called role model? Fine you go ahead. Your rumor ain’t letting me down. I’m tough as stones are stones. I simply don’t deserve your words.

I read one in the paper, it says: stop grumbling is the most brilliant manner.

Marvelous.

Happier events still move on.

Such as, oh boy my mates are waiting a BBQ party next Monday! Hella little fancy’ing, dudes. Enjoy your day! I give you all one wink and big big smile.

In addition, next Wednesday’s the OH MY muet speaking!!! I couldn’t bear to foresee the consequence. Talking without points? Hell no!

Ah I seem to be so negative here.

I've no idea of this happening.

I'm looking forward for sth new.
such as, you.

I crave.

2011-03-24T20:09:00.002+08:00

I must learn to feel okay when I got......pissed off.
Life's often as hard as stone.

You'll be all right, young man.
Take it easy.

Thanks momma for your useful advice, I felt grow up.

2011-03-20T15:14:00.003+08:00

My current passion is to own a DSLR!!!!
Although it's costly enough.
I'll buy it myself one day. I'm craving it badly!!!

Gonna happen!

2011-03-20T11:56:00.005+08:00

Power makes capability stronger.

The sentence suddenly emerges in my mind.

Nah, the above doesn’t link to the downwards.

Things are often casual, as well as at this juncture I am.

Now I’m wounded before I was pleased.

Something's not letting me happy dude--I felt abandoned, deserted, and alone. As if I'm living on an island without humans. Or is it tryna remindin' my own fault for attempting friendships, whereas I wasn't being call to "hey, let's hang out!" ? It seriously knocks against me dude. The feeling of pain to be ignored is bloody despairing.

Perhaps, I should better learn to deal with isolate?
Ugh, look at this frigging world.

I always have a strong sense that I'm truly not a welcome fella. Yes, because of my hot temper. To effort in establishing good connection with me, frankly speakin’, is once in a while a so-called hardship. I weakly good at expressing sadness; moreover crying is a sign of flaw. So, assuredly, directly, I’d chosen to shut up with the misery instead.

I’ve no idea how’s my impression among them; dare not to know.
I understand I give look habitually.

Once upon a time I tried to commit suicide, ah, it helps nth! I was cowardice.

I’m okay to be jolly along, but not telling ya what’s wrong with me. Why that just doesn’t feel correct. At this instance it’s definitely easier to put pen to paper rather than to converse. We all know everyone has different character.

I’m zero empty right now. That’s the way it.

You ought to think healthier teenager! Be motivated!
Don’tcha survive lika morose mankind.

Life’s like that by Avril’s saying.

2011-03-20T11:15:00.005+08:00

I'd like to tell ya that the planet is pretty small on some occasions.

'Cause the stories are: one day while on my way to grandma's, I met a woman. Well nth big, we're just the walk-by; we don't recognize each name. Still I remember in my mind that I saw her twice when taking bus to home, and here comes the third time, I guess she had never notice me though.

It was our senior boy when I was 'lucky' to see him as well. I bet he loves hanging around Jusco ‘cause that’s the only place we met, even before he graduated.

Yet I’ve met Joekey with Lagoon across the Jusco parking lot too, he was holding a secret recipe’s cake for Yinzee’s birthday.

And this one, I’m considered far too lucky on my undang Thursday, ‘cause the place were new to a newcomer me, plus I’ve got no company to chit chat with, I met a long-time-no-see dude! His existence is making my day brighter than blue. Still it was kinda upsetting due to we’re unable to stick together; he came with other purpose. Dull.

These all happened on March.
Sometimes things give me a feel of: oh, what a coincidence.
How ‘bout the comin’ month?

But, but.

This isn’t between me and you.

Yeah right, the planet is small, however ain’t small enough.

2011-03-12T19:46:00.001+08:00

Life get stuck recently.

Imma find the way out.

2011-02-19T18:55:00.003+08:00

I'm feeling dull dude.

'Cause I've no idea why I'm unable to upload the pictures to write 'em.
It's upseting!

So I decided to log in next time.

So, ciao.

Okay, I still give you a smile.

2011-02-15T13:38:00.006+08:00

I'd like to apologize for my misbehavior. I admit I'm a hot temper fellow at times. For whatsoever ignited my flame, there's no way to get rid of it; and it’s beyond my consideration to control myself when I’m into it, you know, it’s just ain’t that easy. I don’t scold someone, but yell and curse with harsh words. This is me when I’m mad.

One day on the way home, someone commended ‘bout this.
Ouch. I felt.
‘Ain’t I still okay with my temper; at least I have reasons?’ I replied.

But he denied. He says I have to improve some more.

Now when I think ‘bout his advice, yes, he’s certainly right.

Around 8 till 10, that when I was a kiddo, I’m more than that. Even though I shouldn’t be, still I shouted at people. So the mates used to address me lotsa ugly nicknames, for example, ‘the pee girl’. Back in the days, many of ‘em dislike me. HA.

……………

Okay, I know what to do.

2011-01-31T13:34:00.003+08:00

Why most girls are easily get irrational by love?

I just viewed someone's blog, after that I'm feeling girls are stupid creatures. We tend to wait for someone we don't deserve; we keep on doing things aren't worth. The worse is, we can't help to stop in believing eternity. Girls are lost. Even the good girl had gone badly.

We’re longing for the unclean break up to return as those days, but we don’t bother to accept another guy who is longing for us. The point is, why the heck should we bear all this?

In this 21 century, is love still trustable?

2011-01-20T12:33:00.004+08:00

Howdy humans.

Today is Thaipusam Thursday, defines the grand event for the Indians. Oh, does it include the Chindians along? :D

So school is off. Students are to wake up right after noon. How sad, I'm an early bird for no good; sometimes I do wanna sleep later than ever although I can just make that a wish. The time points to 8 something when I opened my eyes this morning. I stay lying on bed, not willing to get up and change, causing by the yes-it’s-freaking-nice-but-is-making-me-lazy weather.

Over time, I’m beginning to love my class. We’ve had nice decors. I should give a round of applause to the mates for their teamwork. Uh huh, co-partnership is good thing. That’s because they cooperated to make ours a sunshine class.

Fancy let’s countdown the angpow week! Today is 20 already.
I see everything in red around me!

But my R&D proposal is still empty. Frankly speaking, the stuff is nothing but zero yet, where the whole are to be presented after a week of New Year—10 Feb! Ugh, thinking of this makes me feel blank and blur. I did only a part.

My recent life is so blue. The world is doing me good. I ate plenty of sushi! See how nice do the days sound. Lol.

During home walk yesterday, I saw dead rat body on the street. Lord, this isn’t the first time I met. These poor little creature; the worst is they’re being squeezed! Look at today’s humans :(
Amithaba!

I’m about to move to my new place soon. On the one hand, I’m so happy to see a club house there; just look at that fantastic pool and gym room! On the other hand, SHIT, I’ve no choice other than riding bus home. U40 is just what a rare number on the planet. How I wish I’m given 24 hours more for each day.

I’m done, ciao.

2011-01-16T10:45:00.003+08:00

I guess I'll just write randomly.

Recently I'm living a busy life.
Home works are getting a load, not including the R&D stuff.
And I joined Cheer besides editorial board.
I sensed that this year's gonna be exhilarating.
Great.

Another CNY is reaching so soon within this fortnight.
I don't feel the atmosphere yet, in an actual way.
Just angpows to receive make it sounds a little true.
Oh humans!

Can't bear to foresee my STPM result gonna be.
OH well.
Give it a damn.

You're nothing, MR. EXAM!

2011-01-08T15:38:00.004+08:00

If I'm not thinking of you then why is your name resound in my heart.

If I'm not needing you then who do I feel sad when I'm alone in a corner.

I don't wanna run away but I don't understand why,

if I'm not made for you,

then why do my heart tell me that I am.

I dunno how to be something you miss.

No, not a chance, I guess.

2011-01-08T14:05:00.002+08:00

On some occasion, no matter how hard we tried, still the outcome doesn’t happen as expected. You practiced 24 hours for something you’re interested, what matter is, however, you’re not talented. Meaning to say, which qualities define us as human? Yes, as a matter of fact, we aren’t perfect in everything. But this doesn’t mean we can never succeed.

Because there’s a quote where it says, right thinking leads to right living. I often deemed that we’re capable to fulfill our goals although it goes through difficulties. As long as we remain committed to our target, and aim high with determination, who says we can’t do it? Sometimes it’s just self-hesitation or self-doubt that stops us to take the next step. Doesn’t matter if it takes a year of hard work to better it, just let go of the negative thoughts, and believe in ourselves with dogged determination.

When we notice our imperfect, perhaps we never discover the failing, nor self-review. Maybe it’s not we really can’t do it, but did we try to reflect the mistakes, and take suitable methods to revise? Failure shouldn’t be an excuse to success; teach from the mistakes enables us to identify and analyze what is lacking within us. Therefore, despite we haven’t reach the best stage yet, step by step followed by appropriate ways, sooner we’ll achieve our aims.

We might feel less confidence in achieving our aims, so the encouragement of family and friends seems very important--their helping hands can lighten our burden, because being alone would feel stressful easily, and the mind of helpless make things worse. As hope can be ignited by encouragement, let’s choose to request support from people around, instead of sitting in a corner, frustrated by not perfect.

Besides, maintaining an open-minded attitude of learning helps toward perfection gradually. True, while we start things as a beginner, it’s wrong to act arrogant and be supercilious as this deprives our opportunity to go further. Instead, we should stay humble and learn non-stop. Only like this, our effort will be recognized soon; in short term, being perfect isn’t a big deal.

Hence, we should see the imperfect as a test of life, and turn grief into strength. With adhere to the belief, and a positive outlook, one day we're going to become the perfect human.

.....................

This is my MUET essay for the first school week. I started it since Wednesday night, and ended today with a kinda relief. Lame. Like it's the exact time for exam, like I can google translate during exam. Obviously, my writing skill is poor enough. Still spaces for improvement. And April will be the test month! Meaning to say, I have not more than 100 days to the final sprint! I must stop repeating OMG and start the engine from now onwards. I must score a band 5!!!

2011 is a gotta work hard year. Stpm is reaching soon. I've decided to reduce my fb time which means only once a week, to focus more on studies. it's a good idea of the Stpm agreement letter by school. At least we could mark is as a reminder of commitment. Succeeding is a must!

We may not be perfect in everything we do, but we should still aim high.

So correct.

2010-12-27T12:48:00.002+08:00

I gotta say, the computer isn't working and it's frustrating me! Eventually I used up dad's laptop to kill my time.

Frankly speaking I've no idea what to tell. I had have a great hols-well I'm such lazy to talk bout' it-and now I left only one more precious week to play. Imma listen to the annoying alarm again. I super hate this.

So school, here I come!

Not feeling good for that though.

2010-11-18T20:44:00.005+08:00

I'm currently living a couple month hols.

Signed in but lazy to write. Felt speechless.

Great. I won't be around on 28 till 4 December.
Imma attend a voluntary duty. Can't wait!

ciao.

2010-11-14T18:07:00.004+08:00

I should've let you go.
I should've known.
That you ain't my boy.

The only thing I wanna do is to cry.
Alone.
In my room.
Right at the corner,
instead of at school.
So that I need not to explain if they saw it.
No one would ever know that I weep.
Including you.
Especially you.

I don't simply tell them how do I feel.
Although I do talk a lot.
Still I've got secrets to keep for my own.
It's no good to make it public.
It would have frightened 'em.
For I always know.
But I don't care if they read it here.
Why? I dunno.
I guess, they just can't stop me to write.

I REALLY hoped I might cry now.
Tears bursting? Sounds better.
Yes, because I feel alone.
I hate being alone.
I can't own you.
Day by day, I began to hate all this.
Not hating you, but love.
Love is a stupid game.
Love is intensified by absence.
Love is, shit.
I hate love more when it makes me more grief.
No one can judge me by this.
You don't say to me: things ain't that way,
love can still be sweet.
NO. You get your ass off.
I'm so wounded.
This has been years.
I couldn't figure out how to treat the pain anymore.
I don't wanna trust on love anymore.
Love's such a bad liar.
I could still live in peace without an soul mates.
I don't need to get married with a guy and stay with me till I die.

Love is an idiot.
And I'm a moron.
I really really really wanna cry.
I just don't know why can't I cry.

I know,
it's not that I don't want relationships,
but I'm scared of having it.
'Cause they're always hurting me.
I'm enough for these.

Contradiction.

I want to see you.
I don't want to see you.
Seeing you makes me happy.
Seeing you makes me sad, and felt stupid.
I don't look straight into your eyes.
But I peek on your back while you never realized it.

Doing this same thing,
everyday.
Pretending I'm okay.
I'm nth, when we accidentally met.
'Cause I understood, I'm nobody to you.

The only once I cried,
is during the midnight.
I rolled on my bed,
not going to sleep,
but mind full of you.

Because I thought of you suddenly.

But why can't I make it twice?
So that I can unleash.
I want to cry.

Cry,
because I'm missing you
because I'm thinking of you
because I loved on the wrong one
because I didn't tell you
because I ruined everything
because I'm gonna miss you very soon
because I added you, but we're still strangers
because I see you talk to every humans, except me.

Cry.
I just wanna cry now.
But I can't.

Congrats.
A coward deserves all these.

2010-11-13T10:40:00.004+08:00

I know you're gonna gone soon. I didn't create myself a chance to make you know me. So I, obviously, shouldn't regret. 'Cause it won't helps to switch things back. I missed out the 5 months for god's sake, now it's time to learn to let you go. From this moment onwards, you may leave me alone for the rest of my life. Oh, no, I'm always alone.

I don't think if I'm gonna see you on next Mon. I'll understand if you ain't around school.

I wanna cry, but I don't have Eyemo.

I'm a sentimental jerk.

2010-11-13T10:06:00.003+08:00

A lonely Sat.

Currently listening to Dear John by Taylor Swift.

I love her. She's a damn nice singer.
A wonderful soul girl.
That's why she deserved for the awards. And the fans! Of course I'm in lol.

I want her newest ablum Speak Now earnestly!

And I wonder why isn't there new from Colbie Caillat?
Hmm.

2010-11-11T22:10:00.003+08:00

I often tend to boost my self-discipline through several means.
But at the end nothing much changed nor improved, because of me lacking in motivation. I sound giving an excuse. The situation goes kind of this way: there are 2 persons within me; one wants me to do things perfectly, and there's a bad one calling the good one to shut up.

So that explained-I suck as moron.

Doesn't this sound ridiculous? On the one hand, sometimes I self-claim that I'm much better than the others. On the other hand, I'm still a member of lazy boom gang and mightn't get rid of it. Perhaps, ironic, is the descriptively word I should say of it.

And so when thing gets me down, my emotion will automatically get hardened. This is odd, although I ain't great in the rest; at least I used to have good behavior. I mean it as EQ. The previous I shouldn't be the girl who gets annoyed easily as today; I won't have yell at people. But I'm different now, in an unconscious way. Yeah, it shouldn't be the reason to, you know, ruin the friendship.

It's a must sign to change, girl. You ought to. Give it a damn.

Let's see, first: to analyse my unsolved-since-days(years?)-ago-and-are-still-remaining(ugh)-problems, and the answers are? Laziness. Narrow thought. Presumption. Lack of initiative. Injudicious. Um, lack of self-confidence? Dang, these even took me minutes to characterize myself as. Obviously, you failed. I mean, I F.A.I.L.E.D.

Okay, what’s next?

Method. The useful ones. To summarize it, all I gotta do is to make all my shortcomings into advantage. I wanna personalize me as a successful person just like my family-particularly, my momma. For your information, she’s a super woman who mingles in both profession and household wonderfully. I really crave to inherit her. Plus, restrict myself to self-change within a period does help to fasten my will, right?

I just hope to stop the guilty feel of staying like a filthy parasite. Days were drag out; still I have decades to move along.

Do your best Jia!

You’re gonna be smart, aren't you?

2010-11-11T17:15:00.004+08:00

Good.

The final's over.
No more books to stick with.

Yesterday's MUET was easy. This is the only part where my confidence gained from. But I don't think I do well in PP. I was like shit I forgot what I've read. All the points written were just crapping. Ugh.

Listening test on tomorrow shouldn't be tough. Yes strive for the best!

Tomorrow's gonna be a kinda special day as the school's going to celebrate Mr.Ong's farewell. Frankly speaking I dunno this teacher much-he have never been my teacher during days in Cochrane. I don't get a chance to greet him ever. HA. Sounds ironic, doesn’t it? I'm gonna perform to a sort of stranger in front of the crowd for about 17 hours later. Ah, the nervousness is floating me!

I'm telling myself non-stop to take it easy. It’s an easy job. It’s an easy job. HEY, it’s just an easy job!

Feel okay!

I should wink to myself.

2010-11-08T17:41:00.002+08:00

My current passion is to fly to US.

To meet my dudes out there.
Buy me ticket, would you?

Forget it, it's a clear no from you for sure.

2010-11-08T16:39:00.007+08:00

Whassup? is a recent word I'd say like thousand times.

Ah, it was a dull week. My days were not blue.

I'd been through PA paper 2 today. It wasn't bad, but--there's a but--a little out of time.
I waste the time to redo my graph gosh; this is why I'm still moving my hand when the time's up. How late is it to realize that the choice of doing question 1 is a mistake. I couldn't understand why can't I calculate the answer. Ugh. I gave up then, skipped to the next page. Out of a sudden, I figure out that I'm a real moron man, the other question is actually same as the previous test! Good job huh, as I'm spending useless energy for the first one. Despite that, I still manage to complete the whole piece of paper. Thanks lord I shall say.

Exam's keeping on with MUET and history tomorrow. I'd study sj, so it ain't a thing to worry about. Freaking me, I'm feeling nervous for my bad English skill. The speaking test-day was rubbish. Worst, I gotta write tomorrow! I'm poor of vocab. I used to pronoun better than to write. Oh god!

I made up plan to revise some English reference books minutes ago. Yes, minutes later I'm sitting here typing. I WASN'T LAZY, naw, is just that blogging might be either a good way to exercise it. Lol.

I just wanna write something here, and since I'm done with it, so see ya!

Facebook time! Feel better.

:D

2010-10-24T10:35:00.003+08:00

你知道吗？
在我的心房里有住着一片云彩
这片云堆积了我满满的爱
一切的快乐悲伤则为它填补了色彩
它是我的专属
我的爱的品牌

我总是让自己相信
心锁有一天你会拿着钥匙来打开
不会是巧合或者安排
且不理时间对不对我都想和你try

可后来才明白啊
这原来是所谓的一厢情愿的爱
只能感叹
这发现太突如其来

我永远都学不会女孩也可以大胆地表白
难怪朋友说我没资格空等待
没错
你就是我想要的那个男孩
你不会知道这句话
我一直很想说出来

时间会飘来当然也会飘开
好啦
再过不久你的身影不会再存在
我来不及看你对我笑得乐开怀

我正在把徐志摩的诗加以修改
当日你悄悄的来
就如你悄悄地走那一刻是现在
我不晓得你临走前是否挥了你的衣袖
我只知道你的离开也一起带走了我的云彩

顿时间
我不见了那无价的唯一品牌

剧情演变成这样
我无心去交代
我把这个重担
很直接地交给时间会冲淡一切这行话
让它逐渐替我解开

2010-10-23T09:01:00.010+08:00

Today,

is officially the year 18 of my life.

Ha good feeling there. Plus the weather is making things better.

I woke up early than ever--8! It's not the usual time for me to off bed on weekend.

Apparently it's not only mine, but also is the day of Milo's, Ee Ling's, and gosh my super best friend Ah Bei's! This is kinda bad to can't hang out with you. Ouch. Too, including those who were born on this day, just wanna say, HAPPY BDAY to us!

Hmm, I ain't hoping for any wasting-money-celebration, I just wished I could receive a call from my beloved daddy mummy since they aren't home yet. Then that will be the best present ever in my life.

I bought brother a guitar bag, I'm glad he likes it so much. He was like, OMG where the hell it came from why suddenly appear to my instrument??? HA funny! I succeed, get to make him shock this time. HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU BRO! you're the best and most handsome bro.

Lol I found this so cute.

2010-10-17T09:34:00.000+08:00

GOOD Sunday morn. I enjoy lonely life--sometimes.

Woke up at 'bout 9; I assumed I'm gonna sleep more late than I was since it's turn-to-sleep-at-12 night-Saturday. Yeah was watching TV down there last night with kakak. Actually I wasn't really enjoying the show, we just switch the channel randomly. Brother is probably the latest one to go on bed when he's sticking with the pc. Say, I sound like gonna study the issue or R&D?

Ah, cooler topic please.

That's why we're super late when both parents ain't house. We've got wings AHA. But these days were kinda a bore without them. And sad, this is another week to wait for their home coming--I just can't wait to see their photos.

Gotta revise later. I'm rusted doing nothing useful while November's reaching and as information, is already 17 today! Next month is really really limitless urgent and important! For god's sake what am I still wasting for? Fancy I'm using all the time to facebook instead of MYbook. Gee.

Finally I got my chance to have breakfast with the fellows. I broke my commitment before this. Yesterday, Sir Esmond fetched me--thank you!--to my previous working place and we had pastry with Kah Weng, Sue Teng, Chun Yau, and Tam. Uh, we spent 'bout 2 hours maybe? Imagine the 6 big eaters have to pay around 150 bucks for just a meal. COOL. seems now I'm not the only one to eat a huge amount; they're with me. It's good to see the workers there. Long time no see and talk guys. After that I headed to Leisure Mall with my own fetched by Sue Teng and THANKS girl! To fill in new stuffs because I'm seriously lacking of them. Forgive me I was bringing around my empty pockets those days; in fact I need money $$$! I feel guilty of requesting things non-stop from friends without paying them back. Luckily they're being so good willing to provide my needs. Heart you guys, man. I appreciate that, sincerely.

I bought a box of color pencils, don't laugh at me saying it's bizarre I didn't simply buy it but it's the watercolor one! Which it means you make a color and wet it then it'll turn to become watercolor painting! Really a cool experiment to do. I tried it onto a piece of paper and I got excited to see the effect. I wow'ed a thousand times. Look, I'm not doing this for childishly fun, is just that I used to draw all the time, and more when I was younger. Drawing is good habit huh. Exert a favorable influence. I even dreamed of painter as my occupation once I grow up. But, ah, dream is only dream. I don't exactly have the enthusiasm toward it.

Oh, I had my hair cut too. At WOOD nearby the mall. Nice, I like it.

My intuition tell me that is gonna be a good Sunday. This morning is gorgeous. Currently listening to Big Girls Don't Cry by Fergie before 姚苏蓉-情人的眼泪. Really nice old song!!! I would like to recommend you guys to listen to this. Kinda touching of the lyric. Nowadays mandarin songs are so incoherent, lack of expressing skills, till I couldn't understand the words or what are they trying to tell through words. Say, is the sales market really demanding a bunch of write singers? If there are another pack of professional writers whom are willing to post out their talent, why can't the newborn singers just leave the job to them? Odd bunch of people aren't they, like what? revealing their poor literary talent to the public. Young people in this era love to do things they couldn't do but still wanna disguise themselves. Fine you go ahead I mind my business.

All right have no idea what to type anymore.
Feel okay people I was just crapping.

Appreciate the day since you're given the precious opportunity to breath, to live, to smile.

To read me. wink!

Adios！See you soon.

2010-10-15T15:20:00.000+08:00

I miss you monkey guys SO SO MUCH!!!
The classmates then the classmates ever ;D

2010-10-14T20:14:00.001+08:00

Hola!

Another Thursday night of the year.

Kinda cool. Both daddy mummy were off to Australia fortnight trip with their pack since Tuesday morn . Brother, ah, just drove away to dinner with his friends. Again. Kakak, of course she's enjoying her precious time to sit still in front of the TV--I bet she's gonna stay up late night once more, and cellphone chat's making it worst.

I'm left. My soul feel alone.

However is not that I define it bad. Within some kind situations you don't mind to be alone, you wouldn't talk to people nor wanting them to accompany you while you're not in the sort of mood. Normal mankind, everyone should be like this. So, I shall say, what a good moment by now. I'm wanting much to post.

I wish my folks would have enjoy their journey. Flying to overseas always sounds fun, uh huh SO WHAT? I don't get my turn yet--how sad to say--although my soul and my passport is well ready to. Gee. She called home minutes ago but holy crab suddenly we got disconnected. I wasn't even asking how's their day. Ugh fine. They can go to visit my brother too! Oh my I lost him for months and I miss his voice so much. And I'm feeling guilty now for NOT emailing him for so long. I'm sorry to you bro, will find you after this XD.

My days are as usual. My September was uh, good? I lost the memory. Perhaps nth special occur. Had a couple week hols. Attended to school scout camp. That was fun event! I missed out one day though. I revised during the free days, but mostly they are still wasted. Because I'm often a lazy worm. Lazy worm doesn't read much as un'lazybones. So you get me. Speaking 'bout reading, hmm, year exam is really reaching so soon it's like not more than 20 days left! Sometimes I hate to countdown, especially this serious case. Still, days gotta move on. This is good. I'm so unbelievably hard working these recent days. It's like, WOW. I even stay in class to complete my works rather than to chit chat with friends while recessing so that I might save time to do revision at home. Amazingly--incredible me. HA. I'm shocking the guys too. What a new me. Just to say because I'm unwilling to score eggs for my result. I know eggs are yummy, but failing the exam ain't fun to play with. Yeah much more this is STPM! Real scary man. So I wish myself and the others a good luck for next month! Strive as much as possible is the best way for sure as eggs are eggs.

I'm lack of vocab badly. My English language skill is still spaces to improve. Worst of all, is not that I don't want to make it better, but I'm lack of motivation. Got killed by excuses. Being useless. And I face this frequently: I got points to write, but shit, I don't hell know the descriptive words. Mine are describable or not suitable at all. Eventually I ended up by putting in simple words and it only helps to lower my mark. GOOD. Thanks a lot to myself.
It's a must to fix this JIA! Stop being lazy will be the first and foremost way to advance it.

To let you know, I have a little passion. Do you agree that backpacking sounds cool to carry out? I do. Thumbs up to it. I'm hoping I may achieve this when one day I'm wealthy enough. With the purse full of cash I'm easy to travel around to go to different places as I wished!!! Ah, sweet dream! But I wouldn't choose to plane. To take the bus is making it more fun. More memorable. Then I'll go alone, or, all right, it's okay to have company not more than...2? 2 are enough for sure. A pack of us won't help. Before starting journey I must must must buy a music player 'cause it will ruin the day without ANY music on. True. Since I'm human born to live eternity with melody's. I would like to travel for unlimited days to expand my views. And I prefer to close to the nature! Trees are bloody beautiful with its shade, flowers are always fascinating, and prairie, under the glorious sunshine, OH MY, as if I'm in paradise. It's so much for life. Never enough than ever.

Hopefully I may fulfill this on some coming day! Then my life in the planet is so worth. lol.

I'm random tonight.

Adios!

Night people.
I shall off.

2010-10-14T17:07:00.000+08:00

RENEWED!!!

I feel good! and is good to feel good.

;D

Stop it, get out from it. That's it.

2010-10-12T18:54:00.000+08:00

It's hard to erase you off.
I need months. Months.
I don't tell you I LOVE YOU because I think you might break me.

The day is approaching soon, and I'm still being a coward for no point.
Goodbye, you.
Goodbye, love.
I'll take my time to think of you.

再见了你。
再见了爱。

有缘，再见。

但，我不想再喜欢上人了。我的爱情永远都是消极的。
心很累，无助的思念，弥补不了我内心的呐喊。
还不如放弃算了。

祝我单身永远快乐。

A freaked-out Malaysian.

2010-09-05T23:00:00.000+08:00

It's so frustrating to see such irresponsible motorist accidentally hit into a car and he's obviously the one who causes car crush, too, he's the one to disappear the first. What kind of stupidity is that?! Plus, it's REAL disappointing we couldn't get him caught by law. Where is he hiding himself at the mean time? Hey YOU, did we ever told you we gonna give you a gunshot whenever you're doing good by admitting your fault? Dang you!!!

Been through two moody days.

Polices can't be trusted at all. I hate their empty talk. I bet them till today this moment still sitting relaxing sleeping or even expecting the coming joyful Hari Raya. 'Kay fine you go ahead.

Rest in peace my beloved aunt.
Heart you always.
And even more,
on 5.9.2010 onwards.

你不懂我。(我不怪你)

2010-08-22T17:09:00.000+08:00

内心的话，是你永远不会懂的表白。

我不否认自己是个胆小鬼。谁叫我什么都有，
就是没有自信。

如果有那么一天，你能给我一个温暖的笑容，
那就足够我开心一辈子了。

我是说真的。

见到你的时候，
是当我偷瞄你的时候。

何时，
方能舍弃？

倘若我告诉你，我在等着你毕业，这样
我不会再看到你，无法在期待着你了，你会觉得

so what？吗？或？

心痛？

我累了，我的心。

每次都是这种状况，我不想再玩了。

我宁愿你亲自来把我踢出局，
都不要这么默默地守着你。

因为并不好玩。

又伤身。

It's 11 late night.
These days, I'm forcing myself badly to get you out of my head.
You're sometimes sedative or drug to me.
Shove your ass off as if I'm saying this to you.
If you'll realize that I've been controlling myself to not view you during fb-ing.
You know how hard it is? No, you'll never have the idea. Ever.
Yes indeed I'm a coward freak.
I suck by being a jerk.
And it's because of you.
Shall I say...thank you?
Yes I'm crapping stupid words but why shall I care?
It ain't your fault after all.
The thing is you don't even know me.
I'm just a nobody to you.
Whose problem is this?
Ugh, what an idiotic question is that.
Of course it's mine for god's sake.
I tell you, I'm in a big mess and it's a BIG trouble that I couldn't solve
nor get it over with.
This is so bad.
'Cause loving you is wrong,
and I don't wanna feel right.
I'm torturing myself for nothing good.

It's stupidity, I know. I knew.

讣告。

2010-08-14T14:46:00.000+08:00

挚爱的打洞机、洗手液、胶纸们、胶布们、子弹们、贴纸们，
您们安息吧！
永别了。

祝福我这很想念你们非常需要你们却找不到你们
兼无法见你们最后一面的可怜虫。
我不是个好主人。
这是我的报应。

阿弥陀佛。

I ain't your pistachio,

2010-08-06T21:22:00.000+08:00

don't you assume I'm.

My fellows might be misunderstanding 'bout my personality.
I monkey around or being hysteric at times, at school, at their side, but don't they ever notice that exhilarate could just be a disguise？True. What if the real me isn't that exited instead tryna conceal the sadness which is deep dark within my heart?
Undeniable the grief sense is often so penetrating plus thoroughly; it feels mentally broken-hearted. After all, I'm not an enjoying sharing type. I mean, when I don't have the frame of mind. It's normal if I don't wanna talk to all human being while I'm in hot temper or so no mood to open my mouth. So, sorry guys, for not showing interest nor replying you when you truly concerned of my problems. It's okay if you dislike my kind of attitude; sometimes I wanna say: like I care.

Couldn't explain how come I feel weeping at the mean time.
What's and who's the cause? The answer's in my heart. Still it's not a secret to tell.

I'm sentimental-ing.
As I mentioned, I'm unpredictable.

Got emotional suddenly, and blogging seems the better way to unleash, so here I signed in. To type off the pain.

Freaking moody by now.
I'm poor of love.
I just can't get him out of my head.

Okay I shove off.
Night people.

Fainted =/

2010-08-05T16:40:00.000+08:00

It's a dull Thursday.
Ain't feeling well like having no energy at all.
Luckily not having fever, or else that's it, I'm dead.

Feel okay!

I wouldn't know how to entitle this.

2010-08-02T17:55:00.000+08:00

, would you be my valentine?

I'm strongly demanding.

School,

2010-07-30T15:55:00.000+08:00

is a place where students obtain knowledge,
make friends,
and enjoy school life.

No scandal cases please.

Nor dirty secrets.

心理不平衡了

2010-07-29T20:59:00.000+08:00

近日来显得较不耐烦，越来越容易发脾气
任何人只要说些很难听的话
就超想给他两巴
包挎我自己，毕竟我不见得好到哪里去

老天，昨天又发现我的十块钱都不用的东西被偷了
我真的不知道要给什么反应，竟然麻木了
omg

某某人
没有说过要给她吃我的食物
好心啦，不知丑到~
算

为什么人人都不晓得以礼待人？

我也得好好检讨一番

今天无限的累
却滴不出泪
糟糕啊
心情有够他妈的乱

有时候其实并没有生气
反而心情非常好
但是某某人只要一道出几句根本不是人听的话
我就像刹那刻被触及神经线一样
什么是理智都不懂了
就很想当众臭骂她一顿
顺便帮其他人报报仇
但是又马上告诉自己
算啦
当作没听到吧

不想理了
只觉得她好像很喜欢把芝麻小事搞大那样
很好玩咩？
或者这是你的爱好？

自以为是到~

无聊透顶

You're my consolation.

2010-07-24T21:07:00.000+08:00

Sometimes it's okay to being unable to see you at school;
at least I knew at times that you're around the corner where I am.

Yes indeed I'm crazy over you.

And I'm so HAPPY if I meet you accidentally.

But, however, though,
I still hope you would jump then fall into me.

Crap.

HuiHui told that my love will always in a mess at some time in the past by her fortune-telling game.
I wasn't believing her; nor caring what were she nonsensing.

But now,
I do.

And I wanna baby-cry then.

What's been up?

2010-07-17T12:11:00.001+08:00

It was an empty June due to I wasn't here to post---frankly speaking I was being a serious lazy boom---and school's sort of assignment to be done every single day.* phew * It ain't killing me from breathing in an actual way, but often it still drives me nuts. Well um, my class ain't that much works to do as well as others, so I used to revise by my own self at home instead expecting teachers to come in only after the bell almost rings. Yeah I'm obviously criticizing sarcastically. Because STPM is extremely an urgent case to countdown. And I don't care if the teachers see this.

Okay let's chit chat 'bout school.

Currently am in SMK Cochrane for a year and half. Never thought of to pursue my studies in Form6 at first. On the contrary, I was seeking for college info---UTAR Mass Comm which I was longing for and was almost planning to pack my luggage to move to UTAR Kampar Perak! Was once exited to this because I assumed I could live alone soon without parents' guiding. Translation: I can do whatever I want ;). But then before a couple week from college orientation, dammit surprisingly, I got pre-u offered. Family had a discussion 'bout this issue. Shit. I dunno what shall I say. They sort of convincing me to go for that but, still, they're supporting me if I'd chosen college. Mummy kindly analysis the GOODs and BADs of both; daddy wants me to decide under my determine. At first, I told them firmly: I want COLLEGE. However after considering my eldest brother university's fees is kinda unaffordable to them, eventually Form6 comes to be it. I won't regret of doing this, it's true STPM standard's harder than college's, the certificate's more worth compare to that, so I wasn't depressed during the day I first stepped in the new study area. I promised to myself: it all begins again, and it's a gotta-work-hard year.

Got headache with the whole new preppy clothes, especially the shoe! For god's sake we girls gotta put on leather shoes with a little heel plus a stupid strap. Have to say that's really really really limitless HARD indeed to buy this boo stuff. Don't even know which shops we could get it at, finally I got pissed off and mummy and daddy's too. So I planned to take off note 'bout that. Dunno who's dumb idea of that. And see, even school discipline teachers never care of that already. Until today I'm still a little hot temper 'bout this because it hurts my legs like hell =( . I'm a dumb of heels.

New school's a HUGE different compare to my previous one, where obviously discipline rules are the most. Kinda unacceptable to me. In SMKTC every trendy is a NO or else MASUK BORANG, students often got annoyed by that---Pn.Shanthi the most---but at new's I don't see things doing in same way. They even spot-check the camisole! What a weird action. Alright, in my opinion, it's reasonable to check when if girls wearing white uniform, but Wednesday's shirt too? wtf. Which boy's gonna be that metamorphosis to deliberately spot we girls? Or are you asking us to avoid the male teachers? Like it or not, it's always a rule of school. stupid one. And the surrounding of its, um, it's kinda a mess. Honestly, the paint are like, revealing the true looking of school. You get me? I mean it's really like a abandoned museum! I heard the senior says it's actually two years ago when the building's finish build and he was being laughed because I thought it's only a sick joke. Eww. And for your further info, school own a awfully tall building with 7 floors! But the dang lifts are forbidden to students' usage. I always wanna ask but didn't every time: shouldn't they too make this as students' facility instead of only teachers' and disabled's? Perhaps one day, due to that, we'll become disabled too.

Nevertheless, lovingly, I'm glad to meet new good teachers and fellows. Happy to tell that this is my first and foremost experience to classmate with the Malays. It never like that during times in SMKTC because most of the students are Chinese, Chinese, and Chinese. These guys are kind and friendly and real good la. Cutey Junaidi and Bainun, crazy Azim and Arif, the insane Thivager, quiet but a noisy Priyanka actually, funky Zulaikha and the gone-s Sashikala and Ain! and KANAGESWARY + VICNEKSWARAN (Vicky) who speak Mandarin as well as us *wow* and also the rest such as: Sook Yee whose name address as cooked fish, Mei Fang who own no dumb nicknames to call *yer*, Mun Wei the most lame person in the planet, Pui Yee who smiles always when only with mirror, Chee Yee the-very-seldom-talk-but cute as a matter of fact-girl, and once again same class with our monitor Hui Hui since Form2!
You guys made my day. It feels good to stay here with them and this often gives me comfort when I'm so down of certain things of school which it let me make mind to transfer school. I'm so happy to been told that the Malays like me much too! Thank you so much guys, heart ya, and LA3'2010.

Mine and A2 class went to the School Sports Game these 3 days where were held at stadium badminton kl very nearby our school. Must say that we deserve to obtain the fascinatingly 20 marks for our pay out. Yay! I could skip a few curricular-activities on Wed. The event was quite a bore to me and to the others perhaps. Indeed the place is so freezing as if I'm at Arctic! Or a huge refrigerator! How unlucky was I to have no coat with me =( . I've learned a lesson therefore the next two days I did bring along mine. In fact, we had nothing to do on Wed besides shouting yelling crazily for a crazy amusement since we're the Singapore supporters as was ordered. Despite we did actually gave our full supports, they still couldn't manage to win the glory. Kinda let us feel disappointing and frustrating with that. Especially the boys team la. Hey you, you'd disheartened your beauty Mei Fang la.

No doubt it's me for sure. I took it for fun since it was a boredom to watch the matches. This was on the last day if I'm not mistaken. Forgotten. It's okay, I'm still pure Malaysian with the foreign flag on la. See, I always hated to be seen in camera so this was indeed a good idea to cover my ugly face lol.

And the greatest plus happiest news: team Malaysia won!!!! Yay! It's clear that the enthusiastic citizen were shouting hysterically for the very joyful moment! After all it's a BIG glory to us to see our flag hanging on the top of the rest. And, haha, I think this was the only time I'd heard the crowd sang the national anthem loud and clear. No lies. the event finally ended at 12 something. Before leaving, we went for photograph session with the foreign competitors as this is a rarely occasion to have. But we were reluctant at first. Then dunno how we were down stair at the place and suddenly I'm helping to take photos. Lol funny huh. After that we went back home. The day's the earliest day home since schooling. Today, Monday, another pack of students attending the closing ceremony of it and I saw the Brunei-s were at school having lunch. What a loss for not seeing them nearer, and SookYee's Thailand guy who ain't there. HA.

Teacher, where are our marks？Whencha gonna sign for us???
Haven't get it until today la.
20 marks!!!
Yummy!

The end.
Night.

Hey guys,

2010-07-13T16:49:00.000+08:00

to tell you that this blog owner will be off-blog for days.
Don't blame her; it's school's fault.
Of the home works and assignments and projects and the-coming-freaking-exam
and whatever that makes her ill.
She feels like shit of all.

=(

I've nothing to say,

2010-07-08T21:18:00.000+08:00

'cause I dunno what to say.

Night.

The rabbits and the frogs.

2010-07-08T20:24:00.000+08:00

Once, a lot of rabbits gathered together to express their frustrations and regrets over their cowardice and inability to live peacefully in their everyday lives. They become over the dangers and fears which harassed them daily. In addition, they were often the victims of mankind, dogs, eagles, and many other fierce animals. They felt that it was better to commit mass suicide than to continue living under such unbearable fears in life.

So they decided to die together by drowning themselves in a pond of water. As they were rushing towards the pond, a lot of frogs crouching around the pond immediately plunged into the water one after another to avoid being caught by the rabbits. At this juncture, a clever rabbit among them seemed to understand why all the frogs were jumping into the pond.

So he reminded his fellow rabbits, "Friends, let's stop rushing to the pond to drown ourselves. Look! Right in front of us, there are other living creatures which are even more frightened than us in life."

So this is what we call natural phenomena. People who are unlucky in life often tend to console themselves when they realize that there are other people who suffer even greater misfortunes than they.

Humans are unpredictable.

Whenever I see him, I freaked out.

2010-05-04T15:03:00.000+08:00

Why is love intensified by absence?

Can't believe that I'm still wanting you this much.
I assume that as days past, you would be my past too.
Apparently not.
I'm obviously a stupid coward.
Because I quickly turn my back at him
and straight away leave the place when I met him accidentally on last Wednesday.
The point is,
we were actually inches apart.
I don't think he sees me.
Nor have any recognition of my back.
I have no idea how heart-breaking the feeling is.
Eventually, I was so very down on my way home.
Panic, dumbfounded, because I hadn't expected the coincidence.
But he's a nobody.
He just a guy who might belongs to a girl's guy in someday.

I hate all these; They are real bad.

Days, ways.

2010-02-19T21:35:00.000+08:00

Hey, okay so I'm back here.

19.2.2010-Friday night, 9.36pm, here I come to blog ;>

Since little Chermayne was, er, in Mandarin we say 'blowing', me to get my page updated,
and I'm always an obedient and understanding girl, so, HAHA, you know what imma say.

Hmm, I'd forgotten the date when I've started jobbing at Chui Hin Dimsum Tmn Connaught. Mummy's pal recommended me so that explained how I unexpectedly became a waitress there from 7 to 3 evening. See, I always say how I hated alarms and yes indeed! Ugh I gotta wake up at 6 something every single morning. However I do loved the area due to it's nearby my school, and I could be back home early so that it won't kills me of getting me out from computering or having my own leisure moments. For goodness sake I made friends too. There's a very pretty good looking Form4 girl with me and fews of funky guys. I do love plus kinda hate this job; I hated for being an early bird!!!

That day was a kinda lucky day. I accidentally spotted him----actually it was his sister. He was a guy I'd heart of. It's days we stopped seeing each other at school since he graduated. From the time he ain't appearing at school anymore, I thought he'll be gone forever in my life. Not missing him anymore. But, obviously, the answer is found out to be a NO instead of YES. Dang me, when I saw his sister walked by me, how sad I was not able to meet him even for a second. I was buzzing what if he sees me, will he manage to recognize me or smile me a greeting smile? However nothing happens as I expected although how much I wished. His sister's appearance brought me down on that day. Gotta admit that, I'm still kinda missing him. Even when I'm keying words now. This is bad. I can't get out of him. Sometimes I'm doubting myself, what the heck happened to me?

Speaking 'bout him, same too, the another him is having me feeling grief. I hadn't seen him from the day we were out from schooling. A couple month maybe? Coward me dare not to tell him how I feel 'bout him, I could only dare to look at his photos whenever I'm facebook-ing. I need courage! He's still in my heart, in my mind every night on my bed; it's so hard to deal with this love game. I can't let go of him. Can't badly. If I'm given a chance to fulfill a dream, it will be to go forward to him and say to him:
I love you,
you don't, though.

Feeling to tears bursting, but I can't unleash it at every time.

And what a Chinese New Year!!! Sad to say this is a bore tiger year. Ugh! No fireworks for fun! Stupid government, dammit. Even angpows were also a tiny amount I'd received from. Not that I'm being greedy, I'm just trying to say that nowadays it's getting less and less CNY atmosphere. C'mon we Chinese, where's the spirit?

...........

Those days,
Crestfallen; so dejected.

Say, if,

2010-01-27T16:34:00.000+08:00

you ever realized that I'm always the one there at the corner side,
staring at you non-stop.

you would, even a second, noticed me, the corner-side-girl.

you would, even for once, look at me back,
or smile your beautiful smile at me.

you can see the way my eyes,
light up when you smiled.

you would come to me,
and say the words I wanted to listen at all times.

"I love you"

3 simplest words.
Is all 'bout what I wanted.
Badly indeed.

.............

Please unbreak my heart.

Suddenly, I'm missing those alarms mornings.

2010-01-21T18:21:00.000+08:00

How I missed my school badly!!!

I missed Chinese orchestra!
I missed team athletic!

The only thing won't I miss is the blue uniform skirts; I hate skirts.

This is day 65 since I stopped school bussing.
I missed the couple drivers too. They served me indeed good,
for 7 years, since primary.
Oh Aunty!

Why SMKTC has no Form6?

Issh, teruknya!

Aggravate me is a stupidity!

2010-01-20T11:03:00.000+08:00

So you must not know much 'bout me.
You assumed I'm as kind as others?
Hell NO for sure if I don't want to!

Just shove you muatafucka ass off!!!

For the rest of my life.

Yeah I'm burning, call the ambulance please.
This is my very first to hate someone in this way.
I hope not to feel like this kay?
What a bad today.

I mean it.

BUZZ OFF YOU TWIT!

Why can't you heart me? > Why.

2010-01-19T14:07:00.000+08:00

Colbie Caillat-Realize

Take time to realize,
That your warmth is.
Crashing down on in.
Take time to realize,
That I am on your side
Didn't I, Didn't I tell you.

But I can't spell it out for you,
No it's never gonna be that simple
No I can't spell it out for you

If you just realize what I just realized
Then we'd be perfect for each other
and will never find another
Just realized what I just realized
we'd never have to wonder if
we missed out on each other now.

Take time to realize
Oh-oh I'm on your side
didn't I, didn't I tell you.
Take time to realize
This all can pass you by..
Didn't I tell you

But I can't spell it out for you,
no its never gonna be that simple
no I can't spell it out for you.

If you just realized what I just realized
then we'd be perfect for each other
then we'd never find another
Just realized what I just realized
we'd never have to wonder if
we missed out on each other now.

It's not always the same
no it's never the same
if you don't feel it to.
If you meet me half way
If you would meet me half way.
It could be the same for you.

If you just realized what I just realized
then we'd be perfect for each other
then we'd never find another
Just realized what I just realized
we'd never have to wonder
Just realized what I just realized
If you just realized what I just realized
OoOoOOo

missed out on each other now
missed out on each other now

ye...realize...

...............

*Nothing much.
This song simply represents my feeling.

Gimmie things to do please.

2010-01-19T13:34:00.000+08:00

Recently I'm living a bore life.

Argh!!!
Jobs!!!!

Lazy to computering,
nor in a mood to post.

However I do read Sherlock Holmes at least,
AND Twilight's for the million times.
I love fictions ♥

............

S.O.S!

Ignorance is bliss.

2010-01-19T13:17:00.000+08:00

He can't see the way my eyes
Light up when he smiles
He'll never notice how I stop and stare
Whenever he walks by
And he can't see me wantin' him the way he wants her
But he is everything to me

He don't even know me
He's never gonna love me like I want to
And he just sees right through me but if he only knew me
We could be a beautiful, miracle, unbelievable
Instead I'm just invisible

Yeah I'm only an unseen.
According to him.

I loved my last Sunday,

2010-01-19T13:04:00.000+08:00

where I worked as a volunteer in a temple located near---Kajang?
If I'm not mistaken or forgotten.

*Holy shit,
fancy that was my first day to woke u at 5 in 2010!
Phooey!

But still, thumbs up my thumb; great day!

Here's only one complaint to shout---the foods were driving me nuts.
Dim sum, fries, pizzas, currys, agar-agars, soups, etc., I was like EWW! No kind of my favorite provided.
Poor little me, been starving on that day.

The day started at 7 till 6 something in evening.
Almost 12 hours stood like a statue to serve the crowd, and cleaned the dishes + used stuffs.

Can't stand the ache on both feet when I homed at last.
Crap.
Been having so much energy.
*I enjoyed it ♥.

AWW! Screw Bella? How dare you?

2010-01-18T21:03:00.000+08:00

See how you fans gonna respond?
=D

I spotted this accidentally.

Taylor says,

2010-01-15T13:25:00.000+08:00

Untouchable Burning brighter than the sun
And when you're close I feel like coming undone

In the middle of the night
When I'm in this dream
It's like a million little stars
Spelling out your name
You gotta come on, come on
Say that we'll be together
Come on, come on

Little taste of heaven

Poke me,

2010-01-15T13:24:00.001+08:00

poke me not.

Love me?
Then kidnap me.

Nice!

2010-01-15T13:22:00.000+08:00

Colbie Caillat - You Got Me

You're stuck on me and my laughing eyes
I can’t pretend though I try to hide
I like you. I like you.

I think I felt my heart skip a beat
I'm standing here and I can hardly breathe
You got me. You got me.

The way you take my hand is just so sweet
And that crooked smile of yours
it knocks me off my feet

Oh, I just can’t get enough
I'm a stupid I need to fill me up.
It feels so good it must be love
It’s everything that I’ve been dreaming of.
I give up. I give in. I let go.
Let’s begin.
Cuz no matter what i do,
Oh (oh)
My heart is filled with you.

I can’t imagine what it'd be like
Livin’ each day in this life
Without you. Without you.
One look from you
I know you understand
This mess we're in you know
is just so out of hand.

Oh, I just can’t get enough
I'm a stupid I need to fill me up.
It feels so good it must be love
It’s everything that I’ve been dreaming of.
I give up. I give in. I let go.
Let’s begin.
Cuz no matter what i do,
Oh (oh)
My heart is filled with you.

I hope we always feel this way
(I know we will)
And in my heart I know you’ll always stay

Oh, I just can’t get enough
I'm a (?) I need to fill me up.
It feels so good it must be love
I give up. I give in. I let go. Let’s begin.
Cuz no matter what I do,
Oh, I just can’t get enough
I'm a (?) I need to fill me up.
It feels so good it must be love
(It’s everything that I've been dreaming of)
I give up. I give in. I let go.
Let’s begin.
Cuz no matter what I do,
Oh (oh)
My heart is filled with you.
Oh (oh)
You got me. You got me.
Oh (oh)
You got me. You got me.

Today,

2010-01-15T13:12:00.000+08:00

I'm free for anything.
=D

Hey no disturbs please!

My golden selections.

2010-01-15T12:16:00.001+08:00

1. Lady Antebellum- Need You Now
2. Uncle Kracker-Smile
3. Kris Allen-Live Like We're Dying
4. Robbert Pattinson-Never Think
5. New Kids On The Block-Summertime
6. Miley Cryus-The Climb
7. Muse-Supermassive Black Hole
8. Lady Gaga-Nothing Else I Can Say
9. Lenka-The Show
10. Lenka-Trouble Is A Friend
11. Luke Byran-Do I
12. Jennifer Knapp-A Little More
13. Kelly Clarkson-Already Gone
14. Carrie Underwood-Temporary Home
15. Iyaz-Replay
16. Owl City-Fireflies
17. Fergie-Big Girls Don't Cry
18. Dierks Bentley-I Wanna Make You Close Your Eyes
19. David Archuleta-Zero Gravity
20. David Archuleta-Crush
21. Daughtry-No Surprise
22. Darius Rucker-History In The Making
23. Beyonce-Irreplaceable
24. Joe Nichols-Gimmie That Girl
25. Michael Bubble-Haven't Met You Yet
26. Kris Allen-Red Guitar
27. Rob Thomas-Her Diamond
28. Tim Mcgraw-Still
29. Miranda Lambert-White Liar
30. Zac Brown Band-Whatever It Is
31. Kellie Pickler-Didn't You Know How Much I Loved You
32. Adam Lambert-Whataya Want From Me
33. John Mayer-Heartbreak Warfare
34. Reba McEntire-Consider Me Gone
35. David Nail-Red Light
36. Jason Mraz-I'm Yours
37. High School Musical-Everyday
38. High School Musical-Can I Have This Dance
39. High School Musical-Right Here,Right Now
40. High School Musical-You Are The Music In Me
41. Black Eyed Peas-I Gotta Feeling

.................

* Colbie Caillat's:
1. Out of my mind
2. You got me
3. Bubbly
4. Break through
5. Realize
6. Lucky
7. Breakin' at the cracks
8. Battle
9. Circles
10. Dream collide
11. Droplets
12. It stops today
13. I never told you
14. Magic
15. Never let you go
16. Older
17. Running around
18. Rainbow
19. Have yourself a merry little christmas
20. The little things
21. Mistletoe
22. Midnight bottle
23. Oxygen
22. Capri
23. Fearless
24. Fallin' For You
25. Tied Down
26. What I Wanted To Say
27. I won't
28. Here comes the sun
29. One fine wire
30. Tailor made
31. Kiss the girl
32. Feelings show
33. Begin again
34. Stay with me
35. Love story
................

* Taylor Swift's:
1. Untouchable
2. Jump then fall
3. Superstar
4. Two is better than one
5. Tim mcgraw
6. Teardrops on my guitar
7. Love story
8. Fearless
9. Our song
10. The outside
11. I'd lie
12. You're not sorry
13. Breathe
14. A perfectly good heart
15. What to wear
16. Crazier
17. Fifteen
18. Cold as you
19. I'm only me when I'm with you
20. Tied together with a smile
21. White horse
22. I heart
23. A place in this world
24. Your face
25. Picture to burn
26. Should've said no
27. Baby, don't you break my heart slow
28. Change
29. Hey stephen
30. Invisible
31. The best days
32. Marys song(Oh my my my)

................

I loveeeee musics.
And I need musics to save my soul.

Mind in blank, need drugs.

2010-01-07T10:50:00.000+08:00

Did type few sentences before this but I deleted it; have no idea what to continue.

Unarguably mankind usually are mentally deranged. One's easily have first sight love in unconditional way.
By the time we experienced bad relationship which we regretted much, the first and foremost question will we mostly ask is: why？

Yeah, why？ Either did I ask so.

I guess there won't be reasonable answers to fulfill us.
We're strong enough to defense ourselves by pointing out certain dumb answering in order to just satisfy our mind.

...........

Well well well, dunno what to write anymore.
Emotionally hardened; unfeeling.
What's next?

...........

Who loves me in 2010?
Lord tell me please.

那些哲学说，

2010-01-07T10:16:00.000+08:00

爱心是人人都有的，
看你当不当它是用来做善事罢了。

面子是人人都有的，
看你的比别人的有多厚罢了。

自尊是人人都有的，
看你忍不忍心任由它被践踏罢了。

外表是人人都有的，
看你如何在别人心中留下印象罢了。

打扮是人人都天生的，
看你会把自己搞得有多夸张罢了。

钱财是人人都有的，
看你会不会在30岁前就把它花光罢了。

幸福是人人都有的，
看你珍不珍惜或当不当它存在罢了。

梦想是人人都有的，
看你是不是已经第1000次只说不做罢了。

感情是人人都有的，
看你是否只晓得利用而不曾善待它罢了。

大自然是人人都能拥有的，
看你是否也有份随地乱丢垃圾罢了。

爱情是人人都有的，
看你会不会有一天笨到为它跳楼自杀罢了。

缺点是人人都有的，
看你本身的是否比优点多罢了。

优点是人人都有的，
看你本身的是否少过缺点罢了。

所以说，人生道理不过如此简单。

Funky.

2010-01-04T12:37:00.000+08:00

Cute, isn't it?

Kiss goodbye to 2009.

2010-01-04T12:12:00.000+08:00

Happy belated 2010 New Year to myself and everybody in the planet.
No more the 2009 numbers whenever I'm writing date.

Today's 4/1/2010,which means school day for students, again. Ha, how lucky am I to be able to sleep late without any annoying alarms forever! No more rules, no more discipline DOs and DON'Ts, mo more blue skirt uniform---I hate skirts!, no more homeworks to be done, no more wake up early in the morning 'cause no more schools! I'd been longing for this kind of life since in elementary school.
In spite of that, I missed my SMKTC as well as always.

Year 2010 defines jobbing and college year. Frankly, I'm still being a lazy bug not in a ready mood to go work yet, but I do need salary to buy new stuff.
Contradiction moment. Perhaps will work later.

I'm thinking of fashion design for college course, and am considering Raffles, UCSI, or LIM KOK WING. Which one's better, does anybody know? Hell, Imma increase my parents' financial burden again. The tuition fee must be far too costly for sure.

It's a gotta-work-hard year,
go forward everyone!

真不爽。

2010-01-03T17:00:00.000+08:00

希望越大，失望的机率就越高。
总是盼望着某些东西，但都头来仍然一无所有。

世界这么宽，能拥有的竟然如此渺小。